Tuesday, June 26, 2012

ASSumptions...

Evidently posting the following message on my Facebook Timeline didn't get the message out to enough people. Or maybe I should clarify, the *people who this is directed to*. So, here it is in black and white, bold faced print:

Hey Everyone! Unless I specifically tag you in a post here on Facebook or call you out by name in my blog, don't show your ignorance and ASSume I'm writing or talking about you. I interact with MANY people throughout the day. You may or may not be the lucky topic on any given day.


Get the message? Good! I hope so, cause I'm tired of wasting my time on this shit. I'm gonna start reporting people for harassment who troll my blog and FB pages...

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Own Your Shit!

PLEASE! Can someone please explain to me when something goes wrong in your life, how it's NEVER your fault?  Is everybody out to get you? Is this a conspiracy? Seriously? You can't be that stupid... or maybe you are. WOW!

If you do or say something that results in you being reprimanded by someone who is an authority figure IE: police, teacher, employer, even a doctor, don't make excuses and cry foul. The world is not out to get you. You probably deserve what you are getting and when you own your mistakes and learn from them, you grow as a person.

Honestly, it's not a hard concept. All you need to do is stop making excuses, playing dumb, burying your head in the sand, or blaming someone else for your problems. Face reality. Be the adult you are always trying to convince people you are (personally, if you wanna act like a child, I'm gonna treat you like one). Stop whining, put on your big girl panties and move along. Take the reprimand or possible write up if it happened at work, take the traffic ticket if it was a MV violation, take to heart and mind if it's coming from your doctor, it could mean your health if you ignore him and continue being stupid.

Oh, but WAIT! I forgot... If you take responsibility for your actions, you won't have anything to complain about and there fore won't get the extra attention you are ADDICTED to in order to make it through your sad pathetic life...

Didn't take you long to fuck that one up, did it?? 

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Bullying, Morality and Humanity...

Earlier today while checking my email, I found a notification from the very first Facebook page I ever created. One that I deactivated a few years ago, and haven't even thought about since I no longer use it for anything. After getting the notification in my email and out of some sadistic sense of curiosity, I logged into that account. It didn't take me very long to remember why I deactivated it in the first place.

Every person on the friends list for that account were people I went to HS with or knew from church or the places I worked, the bars I used to go to, the places I used to shop or hang out. I *knew* each and everyone of them, face to face. None of those people were *internet* friends. Some I had kept in contact with over the years, chatted with on one of the messengers (like yahoo or msn), or even spoke to them on the phone.

After reading some of the comments left in the news feed from some of these people I'd known most of my life, I had to get up and walk away from the computer. They are angry, unhappy people... and I am once again more than thankful I no longer live in Arizona, nor do I have to have this hazardous substance in my life. I can't believe at one time in my life I was one of *them*...

What follows are MY thoughts on how ass backwards the people of Arizona really are. And before anyone says I can't possibly know what I'm talking about, let me remind you all I lived there for more than 40 years. Arizona wasn't a place I ran to when life got tough for me some place else. This is where I grew up, where I went to school, where I got married, had children and got divorced. My entire life was in Arizona and even though I've been away for 10 years, I still have family and friends there that I talk to on a regular basis. AND I read the news that comes outta AZ.

Arizona is a *Red* state, a republican state. Every person on that friends list is a dyed in the wool republican. Their comments were full of hate and fear mongering. Not only were they against our current president, some of their comments were in my opinion borderline treason. Not one of them said anything positive about our country. I was shocked! Why? because this is the exact way I once believed, I was a party specific republican who voted straight republican ticket every election.

Most people in AZ have absolutely no idea what is actually happening in the world. They are born, live and die in that desert. And all many of them know is the life their parents gave them, and their grandparents before that. Some still live in the same house or neighborhood where they grew up. Most follow the politics of their family (I did, my Daddy was a republican, so I was too), and many never question why. Many have the sheople mentality and go along with the flow of what  ever issue fits in with the political climate.

One of the more recent things I've seen come out of Arizona is that they have *killed* the school bullying bill. It has been decided this bill only protects the *gay* children in the school system through out AZ, so a law against bullying is no longer needed. Cathi Herrod has convinced the law makers of Arizona the only reason there was even a law in effect in the first place is because groups like Equality Arizona and the GSLEN are using the bullying issue to force their way into the schools and gain access to the children. Really? REALLY? WTF? 


Bullying is rampant in every school and every society, not only across America, but all across the world. It is not exclusive to one gender, race, religion or orientation. EVERY child faces the possibility of being bullied for any number of reasons, but mostly just because there are people in the world who think it's alright to beat on someone just because they can.

So, yeah, I firmly believe the people of Arizona have lost all their sense of morality, if they ever had one. And their humanity is quickly following in the footsteps of that lost morality...

Oh and BTW, that Facebook profile?? I didn't just deactivate it, this time I deleted it. I want no contact with foolishness...

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Validation

From Merriam Webster

val*i*date; verb 
to recognize, establish or illustrate the worthiness or legitimacy of

How many times have you run across something someone has written and you think WTF are they thinking? You keep reading and you see where they have done something and then to make sure it was justified, they ask everyone in their circle of friends if they were right.

They are seeking *validation* for their actions.

Many people who live this way, want us to know how great their life is. How much money they have, how big their house is, how many friends they have, how great their spousal relationship is, what a great job they have, how much weight they have lost, or how their life is all sunshine and rainbows. All the while, they are trying to build themselves up because in actuality they are more than insecure, they are powerless and have the burning *need* to convince not only themselves, but everyone around them just how great they really are.

If these types of people feel they have been *wronged* by someone, they seek to justify their own retaliatory actions by seeking those who would agree with with the course of action that has been taken. They will only ask someone who they know will agree with what they have said or done, thereby giving them the *validation* required to make themselves believe they have done absolutely nothing wrong. This is another way to boost their ego and settle any lingering doubts about their behavior.

Thankfully there are more people who already know their worth, who do not seek to have their life validated.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Question...

...and PLEASE! I do want to know what you think.

1. Give me your honest opinion of Raymond Buckland


Thursday, June 14, 2012

Ahhh, Peace at Last

Today was one of the most peaceful days I've had in quite some time. Even though it got off to a rocky beginning (I didn't sleep well last night), I was able to ground and stay on track.

I spent most of the day in my Witchy Room/Sanctuary/Office cleaning out some clutter (how DOES it get so messy so quickly?), rearranging some of the shelves and actually moving one whole shelving unit into the closet out of the way, and putting things back where I can easily get to them in any circumstance.

I had some mellow music playing in the back ground all day, add in some nag champa oil in the burner and you can see how my day was so calm yet productive. I love being able to spend time in *my* room, it's just all *me* and the energy and spirit in there is completely soothing.

Journey to Faerie is back up and running after taking a break for a few months while I got back on track with managing home, spirit, and school. I've added 2 entries today, and will try to add a new one every few days or at least once a week. I missed my time with the Faeries and they told me it was time to get back into learning about them. I'm planning on sharing the things they teach me and I hope you'll follow and enjoy...

OH! I am more than pleased to say I *think* I've finally removed the last bit of toxic waste from my life, in both the online environment and the personal realm as well. At least I haven't been bombarded with *sunshine and rainbows* from the delusional one in the last 2 days, LOL!

That's all for this evening, I'm off to make a cup of tea and watch something on the DVR. I've got almost 8 hours of shows I need to get through before the next episode is aired... have a peaceful night and sleep well my Darlings.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Wednesday Night Musings

It's been a very crazy day here in the Sand Hills. So I don't have much to say...

Today was my Mother's 79th birthday...I called to wish her happy birthday and now I've got a million and one things running around in my head. Both Momma and my brother aren't in the best of health. Both are managing... I could hear the frustration in my brother's voice as I talked to him today.

I'm pretty wiped out and if I continue, I'll just begin to jumble everything together. I can't even think clear enough to write the post I had intended to write on Paranoia. Maybe tomorrow... and that will be the last entry on mental health issues. At least for now.

They are short employees *again* in Tanya's store, so she's working 6 days this week. I'll have Ravyn tomorrow, off Friday and she's back on Saturday. Jimmy should be home either tomorrow or Friday.

Sending wishes for peaceful dreams...

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Delusional Disorder


I bet you all think I've lost my mind with these posts, right? Actually it's something I've been working on for one of my classes at Ashford University. While researching different psychotic disorders, I've found some interesting information and had the urge to share here in my blog. Please bear with me, there's only a couple more weeks left of this class and then I'm sure I'll find something else to bore you with.

*Delusional disorder is characterized by the presence of recurrent, persistent non-bizarre delusions.

*Non-bizarre refers to the fact that this type of delusion is about situations that could occur in real life, such as being followed, being stalked, being loved, being poisoned, having an infection, and being deceived by one’s spouse.

*Delusions are irrational beliefs, held with a high level of conviction, that are highly resistant to change even when the delusional person is exposed to forms of proof that contradict the belief.

*Non-bizarre delusions are considered to be plausible; that is, there is a possibility that what the person believes to be true could actually occur a small proportion of the time.

*Generally, in delusional disorder, these mistaken beliefs are organized into a consistent world-view that is logical other than being based on an improbable foundation.

*Unlike most other psychotic disorders, the person with delusional disorder typically does not appear obviously odd, strange or peculiar during periods of active illness. Yet the person might make unusual choices in day-to-day life because of the delusional beliefs.

*People with delusional disorder often can continue to socialize and function normally, apart from the subject of their delusion, and generally do not behave in an obviously odd or bizarre manner.

*In some cases, people with delusional disorder can become so preoccupied with their delusions that their lives are disrupted.

So whaddya think? Know anyone (besides me) that might be delusional?? LOL! No seriously, this is a very disturbing disorder and not to be taken lightly. As many as 1 in 3 suffer from non-bizarre delusions and don't ever get diagnosed and therefor won't receive any kind of help.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Ignorant People...

...just piss me off.

Instead of trolling the interwebs to find information to *educate* those of us in the Pagan community who  have been following our paths long enough to have a pretty good idea of what we are doing, why don't you use some of that energy and time to find valid information and educate yourself?

Check out people who actually *know* what they are talking about.

People like:

Starhawk

Raven Grimassi

Margo Adler

Christopher Penczak

Scott Cunningham

Laurie Cabot

D J Conway

Like I've said before, *ANYONE* can create a website and post anything they want. And anyone can find what ever it is they want in order to justify themselves.

If you want HONEST information, look for it among those who actually KNOW what they are talking about, have lived what they are talking about for MANY years, and have written and published books (not just web pages) about their knowledge.

Reconnection

The events of this past week have given me the opportunity to reconnect with some people I hadn't had any type of communication with in a few months. It was amazing to see how many of my friends rallied around during what I thought was a difficult time in my life. They helped me to see my worry wasn't warranted, that my bitterness was misplaced. I want to take a minute to say I love my friends...

Out of 300 people on my Facebook friends list, I have met more than half, thanks in part to many of us belonging to the Pagan community and the events and activities we have attended together. Those I haven't met, I still hold dear to my heart, because they are some very wise and honorable people. Many live within driving distance of no more than a day, some live farther away on the opposite side of the country. It doesn't matter the distance, we are all here as a *family* to support each other when we are needed.

So, Thank You my friends, for loving me and standing by me through my insecurities and bouts of hysteria.  And thank you for being my friend...

Bipolar Disorder

Do you know someone with Bipolar Disorder? Do you know what the signs and symptoms of bipolar and manic depression are? Would you know what to look for in friends or family members in order to get them the help they would need?

According to The US National Library of Medicine the definition of Bipolar is:
"Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people go back and forth between periods of a very good or irritable mood and depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very quick."
There are different types of bipolar disorder:
  • People with bipolar disorder type I have had at least one manic episode and periods of major depression. In the past, bipolar disorder type I was called manic depression.
  • People with bipolar disorder type II have never had full mania. Instead they experience periods of high energy levels and impulsiveness that are not as extreme as mania (called hypomania). These periods alternate with episodes of depression.
  • A mild form of bipolar disorder called cyclothymia involves less severe mood swings. People with this form alternate between hypomania and mild depression. People with bipolar disorder type II or cyclothymia may be wrongly diagnosed as having depression.

Some of the signs and symptoms of bipolar disorder include but are not limited to: 
The manic phase may last from days to months. It can include the following symptoms:
  • Easily distracted
  • Little need for sleep
  • Inability to determine fact from fiction
  • Poor temper control
  • Reckless behavior and lack of self control
    • Poor judgment
    • Spending sprees
  • Very elevated mood
    • Excess activity (hyperactivity)
    • Increased energy
    • Racing thoughts
    • Talking a lot
    • Very high self-esteem (false beliefs about self or abilities)
  • Very involved in activities
  • Very upset (agitated or irritated)
    These symptoms of mania occur with bipolar disorder I. In people with bipolar disorder II, the symptoms of mania are similar but less intense.
The depressed phase of both types of bipolar disorder includes the following symptoms:
  • Daily low mood or sadness
  • Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
  • Eating problems
  • Fatigue or lack of energy
  • Feeling worthless, hopeless, or guilty
  • Loss of pleasure in activities once enjoyed
  • Loss of self-esteem
  • Thoughts of death and suicide
  • Trouble getting to sleep or sleeping too much
  • Pulling away from friends or activities that were once enjoyed
There is a high risk of suicide with bipolar disorder. Patients may abuse alcohol or other substances, which can make the symptoms and suicide risk worse.
Sometimes the two phases overlap. Manic and depressive symptoms may occur together or quickly one after the other in what is called a mixed state.
If you or someone you know has any of these symptoms, please contact your health care provider or your naturopath or homeopath for help in managing this disease.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Let Me Set the Record Straight

It seems my post on Karma has upset a few people. People who are convinced I don't know what I'm talking about. And people who honestly believe that post was all about them. That post was NOT directed at anyone in particular, and if you feel it was, that's YOUR insecurities showing through. People are making it a point to let me know I've upset a few someones. Honestly? I don't care that I may have upset you, or you, or you, or you... If you don't want to be upset, either stop visiting my blog and Facebook page or tell your friends to stop telling you what I've written.

Again, just to make myself perfectly clear. I don't care that you want to hide yourself under a bushel and you have no concept of reality. I don't care that you see only sunshine and rainbows, I don't care that one day you are going to be served up a very large portion of what the world is really like and you are gonna choke on it. I don't care that my words somehow have the power to upset you, or you, or you... before any of you start throwing your threats around, make sure you remember who you are dealing with. I don't take threats lying down. Even if you don't believe in magick and I do and that is all that matters. And believe me, I am NOT afraid of my dark side.

Now that the mundane is out of the way...

I am a Dean's List college student who is required to write a research paper for each of the classes I'm enrolled in. Research means looking at many different aspects of a subject and after doing so, then and only then do you have enough information to have an opinion or make a decision. Let me repeat, make an EDUCATED decision on a topic. Looking to find an article that backs up your theory is easy. That is not what research is. Reliable research websites usually end in .org, .gov and .edu. Anyone with a computer can have a .com site and therefore are not reliable for research. 

Not only am I a college student who does research on a daily basis, I've also been following my spiritual path, the same path without being wishy washy about it for 12 years. I read everything I can by well known authors who have the education and the teaching degrees to back up what they have to say, and are ordained in their specific spiritual path. I don't say I'm _____ and then a few weeks or months later say this doesn't fit me any longer so I'm gonna believe _____.

As I said in my previous post, there are many different beliefs on how Karma manifests in someone's life. MY Karmic belief is simple, you live what you give. Just because I don't follow the same belief as someone else might, doesn't make MY belief wrong. It makes this world a vastly diverse place to live and thank the Goddess we are ALL able to feel and believe in any manner we desire.

I believe I have been witness to Karma in action. Again this is MY belief and I'm not trying to convince anyone that my belief is the only one nor that what they might believe about Karma is wrong. When someone bad mouths another, manipulates, lies, cheats and is a generally unhappy person, I believe that is exactly what they will get back in their life.

Anyone with a computer can write and publish a blog, and anyone with a computer can write a self help article. Does writing a self help page make them qualified to give advice? NOPE! While I was searching for information on the various interpretations of Karma I read an article written by a self described *Woman's Advocate* who has also written a book called Karma. The description for her book says:

*Karma is based upon two decades of research into the global sex trade that enslaves 2.5 million women and children. It is a story of courage, hope and spirituality that will enlighten readers on this global problem and inspire them with what the author calls the true meaning of karma.*

How does researching the sex trade make someone an expert on Karma? I dunno...so I read some more of the article. And I'm still confused, but it IS her belief, so I'm going to let her believe as she wants. I may not agree with her, but I won't tell her she's wrong. 

So, I'll keep reading, keep researching and keep believing in my version of Karma. After all, it is MY belief and thankfully I live where my belief is not only allowed but also protected by the government. My point of view isn't for everyone, I don't want you all to agree with me for that would make life very boring indeed. 

~Namaste~

Repost from August 8, 2011


Quite a few years ago I wrote the following poem about the loss of a friend. I then posted it on MySpace and MyYearbook, with NO copyright protection. It has been changed up and redistributed by MANY people. That I do not mind. I just want to make clear the fact that this is my original work and if you choose to use it, please link back...

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for coming into my life for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

Friday, June 8, 2012

Just A Little Sumpin, Sumpin for a Friday Afternoon...

Courtesy of my friend Renee, who shared it on her Facebook wall and I snagged it. This is PERFECT after the morning I've had:




Karma Comes to Call

I find it sad when people refuse to see Karma working in their lives.Yes, I know there are many different thoughts on how and when Karma manifests, some say She doesn't work in your current life, while others believe you pay for your transgressions as you walk in this time and place. Me? I lean more towards the latter, I believe a person lives what they give.

If you've been peaceful and nurturing, loving and giving, open minded and harmonious, you will receive the same blessings in your current daily life. If you are judgmental, close minded, unhappy, dramatic or all around generally unsettled, you will live nothing but negativity. I also believe there are some who think they are honestly living a good, positive, and loving life that receive the Karmic backlash without understanding She has come to call on their life.

I am in NO way a saint, I have my flaws, I do however try my best to be open and loving to everyone and everything I encounter in my daily journey through this life I have been given. I give second chances, I consciously try to be a loving, caring and giving wife, mother and friend, and in general be as good a being as I possibly can.

Yes, I have my flaws... I have a horrible temper when I have been pushed to the extreme. I've learned to not let things upset me as much as they have done in the past. I've learned to let go more easily those things or people I believe have *wronged* me. I am an ever growing, ever evolving human. One who isn't perfect, can recognize my imperfections and then take the necessary steps to make the changes I need in order to bring harmony to my life and those I come in contact with. I acknowledge I am a work in progress and have many more miles to travel.

Has Karma visited me?? ABSOLUTELY! And let me tell you, I quickly decided I didn't like her paying those negative visits to me and made some major changes to my life. Is my life perfect? NO! And I know if I don't constantly work on the imperfections in my mind, body and soul, She will come back stronger than before.

Unfortunately, there are those who cannot recognize their symptoms as Karma coming to pay them a visit. Those people think things look great through their *rose colored glasses* and have no idea the ramifications of the things they are doing or may have done.

When a person is close minded (even though they *swear* they have an open mind), they can tend to be judgmental and condemning, all the while preaching they don't care how someone lives, what they believe or what their sexual orientation is. In one moment they say they don't care and *support* diversity, in the next breath might condemn a person by saying being Gay is a choice.

In my not professional opinion, this type of person/people is a backlash waiting to happen. It's just too bad they won't recognize the symptoms and will blame something else. Stress, anxiety, being overworked, not liking changes...or my favorite excuse... someone else is controlling their life/surrounding/emotions and they need to figure out how to get back in charge.

Maybe when they have had enough trips to the hospital for panic attacks, anxiety or even a suspected heart attack, will these types of people finally figure out they control their own destiny and make some very difficult changes to their every day life and surroundings. The changes need to come from within, deep down soul searching. You have to be comfortable with your dark half before your light half can do the work it is supposed to do. Burying your head in the sand and trying to convince yourself and those around you that the world is all light and love, sunshine and rainbows just make the changes that much more difficult.

Has Karma come to call on you lately?

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

It's Wednesday and MY FRIDAY!

And it's gonna be a busy rest of the week for me. This is my last week of Ethics120 over at Ashford University, which means it's a busy week.  I have a 10 to 12 page research paper (of which I have only written 4 pages, not counting the title & reference pages) due on Monday for my final grade in this class. I've chosen to write about Gay Marriage in North Carolina and how the vote that passed Amendment 1 is not only immoral but also violates the US Constitution.

Ravyn is a year old now...and she's a very active and healthy little girl. She had her 1 year check up last week where she was given more immunizations. This week she's not feeling her best. The Dr told Tanya she would probably not feel too good this week as an after effect of one of the shots. Poor baby is in a good mood, but clingy and not eating as much as she usually does. And her sleep patterns are off this week too...

On Monday I implemented a new pattern for the beginning of my day. I get up and have my coffee, check the interwebs to see if I missed the second coming, and then go into my Witchy room, light some candles & incense and turn on some soft music. I then make myself comfy on the floor and ground. I used to do this religiously...every morning without fail and my days had more energy and more positivity to them. When I got out of the routine, I found myself grumpy and irritable (more so than usual for me) and less inclined to be open and understanding of others. I'm not saying this is a miracle cure, I've still got things to work on. But I am saying I can *feel* a difference in ME.

The beginning of the month I did my usual house cleaning on Facebook, meaning I removed some people from my friends list. This is always difficult for me. It's hard to cut ties with someone no matter the situation. I just didn't have anything in common with some of them and a few were the ones that had been giving me shit about my stance on organized religion, the LGBT community, my politics and life in general.

Well my Darlins, it's noonish here in the Sand Hills of NC, Miss Ravyn will be here about 2:30 so I need to get my self off here and do a few things before she arrives. You all have a wonderful day. And I'll try to come back out to play tomorrow...

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Thoughts on a Tuesday Morning... Warning! It's turned into a Rant...

There have been a few changes in my life in the past couple days and it got me to really thinking about things and examining my inner self. I am a work in progress, my changes happen on a daily basis, and sometimes it takes a bit for me to catch up and understand them. I'm not perfect and in no way do I try to portray that I am. I'm full of misgivings that keep me constantly searching for answers. Some I've found, others manifest as I need them.

I've consciously made an effort this week to take time every day to ground. When I was doing this on a regular basis, my world didn't get out of kilter so quickly. I could focus more and be a positive and progressive addition to my family, friends and the world around me. I've changed the amount of time I spend on Facebook, and I've been reading more... books from some of my favorite Pagan authors.

Currently, I'm working through The Inner Temple of Witchcraft by Christopher Penczak with my group of friends. We don't all live in the same area, so we have a FB group setup and when they get together if some can't attend we are hoping to be able to either have a * conference call* with someones cell phone, use G+ Hangout, or possibly even Skype. I'm happy Amanda thought of this. I honestly miss my Sisters and *need* to have this time with them.

I also have a book called Journey to the Dark Goddess: How to Return to Your Soul by Jane Merideth. I haven't really gotten into this one, it's the book I was asked to write a review for. And when I received the book from the publisher there was a note in the packaging that said if I couldn't give the book a 4 or 5 star rating to not bother writing the review. This bothered me, and as a result I haven't been able to get into it. It's a shame to because it talks about working with Persephone, Inanna, Psyche, Hecate, Ereshkigal, Kali, Morgana and Lilith. And since Persephone and Lilith are 2 of my Patron Goddesses, I'd like to know more about them and how to work with them...

OH!! The other day I was accused of cramming my beliefs down someone's throat...Hrmmm. Is this what I do? I don't think so...

I will admit I am a passionate person and I stand up for my beliefs, I am loud, I am proud and I will fight to my last breath for something I believe in. I had my head buried in the sand for such a long time and now that I am more aware of my surroundings, I strive to keep myself educated on the things that are going on in the world around me.

When I lived in Arizona, it was like I was in a cloud all the time and followed along with what my family and friends believed. I was one of those *sheople* people I talk about. You know, those people who blindly follow and believe everything they are told without trying to see if there is more to the story. For 45 years I was like that, I followed my father, my family, my husband (which ever one it was at the time, LOL). I was a dyed in the wool Republican *GASP* and would have never thought of not voting a straight party ticket. Now that I'v moved away and opened not only my eyes, but my heart and mind I gotta ask... What the hell is it with the people who live in AZ? If you look at some of the news reports coming out of there, it makes me really wonder how they live with their conscience. The most recent thing I found is there is the lawmakers there have KILLED the Anti Bullying Law. WHY?? WTF are these people thinking?? The person taking credit for getting this law overturned is Cathi Herrod, who convinced everyone the law only protected Gay children... Are you kidding me?? And the people of AZ are OK with this... The people of Arizona have lost their self respect and their humanity will be the next to go.

Someone made a comment to me the other day about how they are done with the Pagan community because all we do is bicker and bash Christians and that it seems all the people they know who are either Gay or Bisexual are Pagan and that Paganism gives everyone a free pass to be morally bankrupt. Again I ask...WTF?? This person was trying to figure out their spiritual path and thought that Wicca fit them OK. Never mind that they knew absolutely nothing about the Pagan/Wiccan culture or would even take the time to do any research on it. I guess it just sounded cool to call themselves Wiccan... they have decided that being Wiccan is no longer their cup of tea. OK, I can live with that, but when you describe yourself as a spiritual person who honors each persons choice and the path they choose to walk AFTER you have just said that being Gay is a choice and Pagans are morally bankrupt, it makes me wonder just exactly who you are trying to fool. My guess is this person has absolutely no idea who or what they believe and just goes along with who ever they happen to be friends with at the moment.

This brings me to the next thing that is on my mind, and yes, it's pretty much a repeat of a previous post. However, it seems that some people just don't get it. I'm talking about my Facebook page. Here are the rules once again:

1) My Facebook is MY page

2) I say what I want on MY page

3) If you don't like what I have to say, either ignore my posts or delete me. I don't care either way.

4) DO NOT try to dictate to me what I can post on MY page. I would never try to tell you what content you can put on your page, so extend me the same courtesy.

5) If you choose to engage in a discussion on MY page be respectful, otherwise your comments will be removed from the discussion. If you continue to be disrespectful, I will delete you. No questions asked.

I hope this is the last time I need to post this reminder, but I doubt it. Why?? Because I'm vocal, I'm obnoxious, I post controversial things on my page and not every one agrees with me. That's OK too, if everyone agrees with the other person it makes for a very boring existence.

I have so much more I want to write about and to get out of my system, but I need to get things in order for Ravyn. She'll be here somewhere around 2:30 and my time online is limited to when she takes a nap or goes to sleep for the night. I love taking care of her...she's grown so much and changes daily. Thank you Jimmy for taking a less than desirable job (that has turned into one you really like) that pays enough so I can stay home with Ravyn.

So I'm gone for now... tomorrow is another day!