Saturday, February 25, 2012

It's Almost Over

Just 2 more days! This class is kicking my ass. And it's not because I don't know the material or the software we are required to use. My problem is with this instructor.

Every week for the past 5 weeks she has posted our assignments and I've made sure I READ EVERYTHING, however, I've had this feeling after assignments are posted she goes back later in the week and adds things to the assignment. Like for this week, we are doing our research paper, and have actually been working on it since week 1. I have read and re read the instructions over and over and over, and each time there is something different posted. Yesterday when I went to make sure I had all the elements included in my paper, I find we are supposed to incorporate an Excel spreadsheet in our paper. THIS WAS NOT THERE IN WEEK 1 or 2 or 3 or EVEN LAST WEEK.

How can I be *sure* I wasn't overlooking something? Because I copied and pasted the assignment into a Word Doc so I would have it available in order to work offline. After 45 mins of being logged in to the classroom, you are automatically *timed out* and need to log back in. Since this class and this particular assignment has been the most challenging, I started making a *hard copy* of my assignments.

OH well, as far as I'm concerned, my assignment is complete. I can't do anymore, it's making me CRAZY! I have met all the Grading Rubric requirements (except for the Excel spreadsheet), 9 pages APA formatted, including Title and reference page, embedded images, proof read, all the I's are dotted and the T's crossed. Indented and cited. That's JUST the paper. Then we have the 10 slide PowerPoint presentation that accompanies the paper. Which BTW, was part of our discussion question last week. We uploaded the PP to our *chat* server for peer review... (I got a perfect score on this one).

After all is said and done this week, I'm just hoping for a passing grade in this class. I sure ain't gonna have an *A*, that was screwed during the second week. But that's a different subject all together.

Let's just say the end of course survey we as students do after each class is going to be THE most detailed survey with lots of entries in the note section that I've done so far... C'mon Tuesday and Eng122 English Composition II...

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Tumultuous & Turbulent Tuesday

For the past 2 days I have been reading everything I can find about what went on this year at PantheaCon. I wasn't there, the information I have is from people who were there or simply others who like me, have an opinion about some of the activity that has been reported. The following is my opinion, my rant, my feelings... In no way do I *EXPECT* anyone to either agree or disagree, luckily we are all blessed with the gift of free will that includes the *right* to decide how we as individuals feel about this or any other situation.

It is my understanding the controversy surrounding the celebration this year is almost like a continuation of what happened at last years gathering. And the central character in all this muck is the well know Z Budapest. I have never met the woman, but have like others read many of her books and have been made aware of the things she stands for, supports, or otherwise engages in. We all know Z is a Dianic elder and has shown herself to be pretty much anti male. So it comes as no surprise to me that she would want to hold her ritual for women. The problem with this is she has stipulated *Genetic Women* or those born with a vagina.

What about the transgender community? What about the women who are living in a male body? What about the women who are now fully living as women where they had previously been living a lie?

The ritual that Z facilitated at PantheaCon this year was announced and advertised as a healing *skyclad* ritual. OK, again, I don't have a problem with this. She chose to limit the participants to *genetic women* only because the women participating *might feel threatened* by someone who wasn't in actuality a *genetic woman* (DAMN! I'm getting tired of that phrase!!) Again, I ask, what about the transgender community, the women there who also need healing??

If you want to have a ritual of ANY kind at a public event, the ritual needs to be open to anyone and everyone who wishes to attend. If there is the need for a gender specific ritual, do it privately, not in a convention type setting that the general public has paid money to attend. I don't care who you are or how many people follow you, or even if you think you may be the living manifestation of your chosen Deity. When you exclude anyone, for any reason, you set yourself up for ridicule and then embarrassment.

One final thought: When I go into Sacred Space, I go *In perfect love and perfect trust*. To me this means I trust EACH person in that circle with me. I have NO problems being in a circle where men are present. If you have an issue being in any circle, whether skyclad or fully clothed with a member of the opposite sex because you *might feel threatened* YOU need to be the one examining YOUR problems and NOT project those problems onto the rest of the community. I have been in Sacred Space with complete strangers both female and MALE and felt more love and trust than I could have imagined.

If you would like more information about what went on at PantheaCon this year and some of the reactions to those activities, you can read more here:

Star Foster from Patheos

T.Thorn Coyle from Know Thyself

Lupa from Lupa Bitch

David Salisbury from David's Cauldron

Fire Lyte from Inciting A Riot

Robert from Doing Magick

Jason Pitzl-Waters from The Wild Hunt

Rowan Pendragon from One Witch's Way

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Thursday Night Ramblings...

It's been a strange but yet productive day here in the Lair. We didn't have Miss Ravyn today as scheduled. We still got up at 4:15 and waited, and waited, but they never got here. So at 4:40 I'm on the phone to see what happened. Mommy got sick overnight and was unable to go to work. She didn't hear her alarm and was not only late calling in to work, but also letting us know what happened. As a result, the Huz and I were able to go back to sleep for a bit, and by a bit I mean I was back up about 8:30. Jimmy slept in til about 11, he really needed it. He's been such a great help in the wee hours of the mornings when Ravyn does come, he is usually the one who gets up to take care of her. He LOVES his mornings with her, she's still sleepy and cuddly, normally he can put her in her bed and then come back to sleep for a while.

I got up and turned the coffee maker on, took the fur babies out, and then settled on the sofa to begin the waking up routine. Turn the telly on and flip through the channels a few times to see if anything catches my eye...usually NOT, but sometimes something just makes me stop. Today was a NOT day, so I got my first cuppa with Int'l Delight Cinnabon and switched over to the DVR. I had Revenge saved from last night and settled in to see who shot Daniel. Man was I surprised when the dead guy actually ended up being Tyler...and since I absolutely could not stand that character, I was one happy Witch when they revealed him as the victim.

After Jimmy got up and had his coffee, we both got busy cleaning the house, picking stuff up, Jimmy vacuumed and I did a load of laundry. You see...the Time Warner Cable guy was coming today to set us up with their Signature Home Service. It's whole house DVR, phone and ...get this!! 50mgb of internet...WOOT! This means Jimmy can play WoW or SWtoR without ANY interruptions or problems. We also get 90 days of FREE HBO, Cinemax, Showtime and TMC. I'm excited because we have 2 DVR's that can record up to 4 different shows at a time AND we can watch any show in any room! We can even start a show in the living room, and then finish it in the bedroom. Boy Howdy...we are UPTOWN now, LOL!!

Ashford is...well, let's just say I am very happy this is week 4 and I only have 1 more week of this class to go. I have a problem with the instructor and her inability to be clear on the assignments she gives us each week. This week, it's 1 assignment, and 2 discussion questions, one of which is to upload and share for classmate review our 8-10 slide PowerPoint presentation that is part of our final research project that is due on the 27th. Both discussion questions have been submitted and tomorrow while we don't have Ravyn, I'm going to work on the assignment that's due Monday.

Well my Darlings, that was my Thursday. Nothing *too* exciting, with just the right amount of productivity...

OH! I forgot to mention. Last night Tanya and Ed gave me a late birthday present. I got a wii Fit, with Yoga...

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I'm Sorry...

I have been so wrapped up in a multitude of different subjects/projects and I've been neglectful of my personal reasons for writing.

I have 2 more weeks of my 4th class at Ashford University. It's Computer Literacy and I'm having a difficult time with this one. It's not that I don't know the material or how to use the programs we are required to use for this and probably every future class while I'm enrolled. IMO the instructor is the problem, well at least for me anyway. I have a laundry list of complaints about her and the way she presents the information, as well as the way she requires us to submit our assignments. Let's just say, sometimes people with a high IQ don't understand us *common folk* need a bit more clarification at times and when we ask questions, it REALLY does mean we don't fully understand what you mean. And because I didn't understand and asked questions like you assured ALL of us in the class you would be happy to answer, my grade went from an *A* to a *C-* in the space of ONE week!!! Because you chose to NOT answer my damn questions...*sheesh!!

It's cold here in Hope Mills...and is gonna be for the next few days. By cold I mean it's 36* going to a high of 40*. I HATE the cold, and even though the weather here is much nicer than in say ... Michigan where we lived through 2 of the most miserably cold, wet, snowy, icy, just downright nasty winters I've ever been through...it is still cold to me. So, the thermostat for the heater is on 70, poor baby thinks it's dying I'm sure, I've got on my warm comfy Jammies and a sweatshirt, and I'm still cold. Oh well, it could be worse, and I am extremely thankful we have had such a mild winter. I'm just overly grumpy...winter isn't my favorite time of the year.

Jimmy has a job, he won't be starting for a couple weeks though. He's gonna be driving OTR for Taylor Express, and since they have only one trainer, he's not gonna be available til around the 27th or so. This isn't the ideal job, and definitely NOT the one he wanted, but he's gonna take it and hope that with Spring being just around the corner the local driving jobs will begin to hire again for the season. Construction is such a fickle employer... We are still hoping for the position he applied for in Haws River, that will put us lots closer to Raleigh and the people we left behind when we moved to HM almost 2 years ago.

Ravyn is walking...just a few steps at a time, but I'm pretty sure she'll be a force to be reckoned with in the next few days. She got a little walk behind toy for Yule, and loves it like crazy. She uses that to get into everything that isn't nailed down, LOL! It has given her the confidence she needs to try standing and walking without being supported in any way. GOSH, she's growing SO fast! She's almost 9 months old... YIKES!

Me...eh, I'm still here. My diet and weight loss has been put on hold for a while. It's really hard to buy the correct food to eat on a limited budget. Especially since Jimmy doesn't do too well with salads, fruits and veggies. He's a meat and taters guy, like most men, so for now, I'm buying the groceries that we can both eat and making them stretch as far as I can each month. With this new job, we are praying we can get back on track and be able to do more than *just survive*.

I've been pretty moody too, I could blame it on seasonal depression, however, the winter has honestly been pretty good, so I'm not sure where the bitchiness is coming from. I've been keeping up with Ashford, studying my Totems and learning more about how they guide us on  a daily basis, and I've been reading my Nook at least for an hour or so each night before bed. I'm just feelin kinda blah...

Hopefully when the weather gets a bit warmer I can start spending some time outside and the cabin fever will go away. I'm looking forward to being able to work in my little flower garden with the possibility of expanding it a bit this year. Last Spring/Summer was the first time I was able to have the space to plant anything and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Jimmy helped alot, cause he knows I've never been very successful at growing things, but hey, that's what happens when you grow up in the desert. Everything is brown and I never took the time to try growing things when I lived there. The other day, I found someone had planted daffodils along the edge of the driveway. I guess they had already bloomed by the time we moved in here last April, and I'm watching those little green shoots  like a mother hen. I LOVE Daffy's, I have ever since I first discovered them when we lived in Maryland,  to me they are the perfect signal that spring has arrived!