Tuesday, December 27, 2011

My Book List for the 2012 Witches & Witchcraft Reading Challenge

This is the beginning of my list. I'll be adding to this in the next few days, but wanted to get a start before I forget.

FICTION BOOKS:

A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness

The Black Jewels Trilogy by Anne Bishop
(even though this is 3 books in one, I'm only counting it as ONE book)

Dreams Made Flesh by Anne Bishop

The Shadow Queen by Anne Bishop

Shalador's Lady by Anne Bishop

Spooks and Magic by Jack Sorenson

The Witch Queens Secret by Anna Elliott

Pale Demon by Kim Harrison

The Outlaw Demon Wails by Kim Harrison


NON FICTION BOOKS:

Book of Shadows by Phyllis Curott

If You Want to Be A Witch by Edain McCoy

FaerieCraft by Alicen and Neil Geddes-Ward

2012 Witches & Witchcraft Reading Challenge

Today while I was straightening up my networking sites, I found a new group on Good Reads. It's called On The Broomstick. And from there I found a reading challenge:


The challenge looks very cool and is being hosted by
Melissa's Eclectic Bookshelf
I can't wait to get started. I'm thinking I'll go for the Crone level since I love to read and anything Witchy gets my attention the easiest.

I'll be adding my book list in the next few days, so come on along and let's see how many books we can read in 2012!!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

There Are None So Blind As They Who Will Not See

I have been sitting here staring at my monitor for over an hour. I'm trying to figure out how to put my jumbled thoughts into words, and not offend others. I don't know if I can... There are SO many things going on right now. I know this is supposed to be a peaceful time of the year, filled with family, friends and those who are important to us. I've got that too. But somewhere in the midst of all the good things going on around me, a couple of uglies have reared their heads.

Let's start with my oldest granddaughter, Cheyenne. She's 15, a freshman in HS, living in Prince George's County, Maryland. And she's being bullied about her spirituality. She's Pagan, like her mother, like me, like her aunt and most of her other extended family and friends. She's quiet about her belief, not in your face until you push her. She's been called every name in the book, had people run from her, and tease her mercilessly.

This week at school, during one of her morning classes, not one but two of her classmates decided it was the thing to do and began calling her names, calling her a Witch in the middle of class. I'm guessing it was a loud and obnoxious name calling session. And that the teacher didn't do anything about it until it became out of control. Because, Cheyenne is the one who was sent to the office. However, she kept her mouth shut, didn't respond to the taunts and kept her anger and hurt bottled up inside. The way she normally handles the bullying and tormenting she receives at the hands of her peers.

Then in the afternoon, she's sent BACK to the office once again, as a victim, but treated and talked to by school staff like the she's the one causing the problems. She is even threatened with a lengthy suspension IF she's seen in the office again. This is a place she is *supposed* to feel safe, second only to her own home. But she gets up every morning and goes to a place where she knows she's not safe and feels very vulnerable.

I am more than outraged by this. Bullying in any form is NOT acceptable!

My daughter, Cheyenne's mother contacted the principal of the school, let her know she will not tolerate this kind of treatment and will happily take the matter to law enforcement if something doesn't change. I've also found out the Prince George's County Schools have a ZERO tolerance policy when it come to this type of harassment. Evidently, when school is back in session after the holiday break, Cheyenne is to meet with the HEAD of the school security and fill out a report. It also seems as if the two girls doing the bullying have quite the reputation and repetitive pattern for this type of behavior.

If things aren't settled in an amicable fashion, I'm thinking there will be alot more exposure, say by police reports and possibly the media?? We'll see what happens in January.

Now onto the second thing that's bothering me. This one is a little bit closer to home. By that I mean, it's happening right here in North Carolina, over in Asheville to be precise.

On Monday a 5th grader was given a bible while at school:

Bibles Made Available at Ashville area School

After reading the article, chatting with the mother, and reading ALL the comments on this article (which BTW, have been reset from the original posting of the article. There were well over 100 comments made last night), I am upset, angry, sick, sad, (insert verbiage here...) about the audacity, stupidity, close mindedness, and down right rudeness of some of the people who claim to be Christian who commented on this article.

Most were outraged because a Pagan mother had the nerve to question and complain about the *availability* of a bible for the children to *pick up if they wanted*. They wanted to know if she was Pagan why she was celebrating Jesus' birthday by having a CHRISTmas tree and having CHRISTmas lights on her house. Not one of them would take the time to read some of the responses about it being a Yule tree and that she was celebrating Winter Solstice. They were more than judgmental, they were condescending, and arrogant.

I guess my point for this part of what is bothering me is this: We are in the MIDDLE of one of the biggest CHRISTIAN holidays of the year. And from what I remember from my time in a Christian home and church, this time of the year is supposed to be about love and celebration and peace. I saw none of these things coming from the Christians who commented on the article.

Not one of them took the time to actually understand why Ginger was and still is upset... As far as I know, there has been no resolution to this incident. I don't know what is going to happen, but I WILL be watching to see how this plays out.

I feel like I should be doing something, ANYTHING to help in BOTH of these issues, but I have no idea where to begin.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Wednesday's Weekly Wrap Up

I know I promised you all an entry about the family tradition of our Christmas Eve open house, but I'm just not feeling up to cruising down memory lane tonight. Since I moved away from *home* in 1998, the holidays have been a very tough time for me. Even more so since I left Arizona all together back in 2002.

So, tonight, y'all get just the weekly wrap up of the uneventfulness (a Vickie-ism) that took place here in the Sandhills of North Carolina.

I *finally* removed the very last vestiges of the negativity that I have been under for the past year from the ex roomie and her family. We returned the car they *gave* us, we decided we had been used as a storage facility for this piece of crap, and since they weren't offering to help get it in running condition, it was towed back to their yard and parked.

We have our Yule/Christmas tree up and decorated, made some adjustments from last year, but it still looks great and I'm very happy with it.


I added a few things to the wreath for the front door and put it out as well.


Our house smells so great! I am a huge fan of Bath and Body Works wallflowers, I use them all year long but for the month of December I use the Fresh Balsam scent. I also have one of their 3 wick candles burning most of the day and then if I want a little boost, I use their super concentrated room spray. All in Fresh Balsam. I chose this scent, because I wanted an artificial tree so I could decorate right after Thanksgiving (a real/live tree won't last long enough to do that). Jimmy wanted a real/live tree and really missed the fragrance of a live tree. By using the Fresh Balsam scent, we both are happy, LOL!

Classes are going GREAT! I am currently in week 2 of my third class, it's English121, mostly grammar and how to construct a college level paper. So far so good... OH! My GPA for the 2 classes I've completed so far is a 4.0! I'm SO stoked, and YES, I know it's been relatively easy so far and will get more difficult as I go, but hey...it's been 35+ years since I have been in school and I get to prance a bit, LOL!!

Miss Ravyn is GROWING so fast, she's 6 months old, crawling all over, sitting up by herself, and pulling herself up on things. Papa says she's gonna be walking before ya know it. I don't think she's been feeling to well the past few days, she's been sleeping more than normal and wants to cuddle alot too. We just do what ever makes her happy and there isn't any problems...yeah, she's got us all wrapped around her finger already, LOL!!

Well, my Darlings, I think that's about all for this time. I'll be back again next Wednesday with more of my ramblings (which BTW, I am VERY grateful you continue to read my nonsense), so until then have a great week!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Holiday Memories...Day 1

I don't know how many days I'm going to keep up with this, but I have a few memories I'd like to share. Thanks to my friend Rae, over at Unleashed Diva Living Out Loud for the inspiration.

My most favorable family holiday memory was actually after I was an adult and had kids of my own. My Mom and I would spend the entire weekend after Thanksgiving decorating the family home. It was a holiday spectacular both inside and out.

Living in the deserts of southwest AZ, it's really difficult to have the "traditional" Christmas, but my mom always pulled it off. Every tree in the 5 acres surrounding the ranch house was decorated with lights and we had REAL luminaries lining the whole driveway. I remember spending about an hour each evening replacing and lighting the votive candles in every brown paper bag we had set up.

The entire house was decorated with multicolor lights (she later changed to clear icicle ones), and the wreath on the front door was a sight to behold!

We used to do what she called "marathon shopping trips" because we lived about an hour south of Tucson and her favorite mall was Tucson Mall. We'd get up early on Saturday morning, hit the road and be there when the doors opened. We'd shop ALL day and leave when the mall closed. Drive an hour or so back to the ranch and then do it all over on Sunday. LOL!! We were shopping fools back then.

Her favorite store to shop at was Dillard's, where she had a credit card. On one of the trips to Dillard's we went to the Christmas dept and she found Department 56 collectables. She bought the entire Dickens Village that year! In following years she added a building or two and now her collection is almost as big as the ones displayed in the stores, LOL!

Stay tuned...there's a couple more. Next up our Christmas Eve open house and ALL the amazing Mexican food, YUMMMM!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

"Welcome to Thanksvember! 30 Days Of Thanks"

I've been doing this on my Facebook page and let me tell you, it was a huge challenge to stick to it and come up with something different for 30 days. Today is the final day and instead of writing something cute or snarky on my timeline, I'm going to write the last entry here and link it to my page.

The last 30 days have been an emotional roller coaster for Jimmy & I. Technically, since May 2010, we have been what government agencies consider homeless. That is to say, we didn't have a lease or mortgage payment and the only bills we had in our name were the ones for Time Warner and T-mobile. Which BTW, do NOT count as utility bills. We lived with Tanya and Ed for a while, but then Ravyn was coming and they needed the room we were sleeping in for her. So April 1st, we moved...just down the street, into an unfavorable roommate situation.

I'm not going to go into alot of details, for those of you who have been following my blogs and FB page, most of the crap is posted if you want to try and catch up. Lets just say, living with a selfish, lazy, arrogant, irresponsible, disrespectful, manipulative,lying, narcissistic 27 year old is something I don't ever want to have to do again. The lies she told and the things she did were just so wrong.

We pay rent here to an amazing, kind hearted man, who would bend over backwards to help you out. All you have to do is be honest with him, something she just couldn't do. Even though she lived here and we moved in with her, we were the ones that paid our rent on time and took care of the house and yard. But, let something happen and all we would get it *it's MY house, you aren't on the lease and I'll do what ever I want*. Unfortunately, she made this statement and choice one too many times, the landlord found out and gave her a 30 day termination letter. Well, that didn't go over well at all, her mother (who MUST control every situation) had to get involved, told the landlord that _____ didn't understand the lease terms (mind you, she's lived here for 3 years) and convinced the landlord to give her one more chance. Which he agreed to BUT told her he was writing a new lease and putting Jimmy & I on it beginning December 1st. She said "OH HELL NO", packed what she could get into her car and went to live with her girlfriend...who lives with her parents.

To make a LONG story short, she FINALLY finished packing all her crap and moved out of here on the 9th of November. As soon as she was gone and had given the landlord her keys, I immediately cleansed and smudged the ENTIRE house to remove all the negativity we had been living under since April.

We have slowly begun to make this our home, it is such a peaceful place to be. We moved into the master bedroom with the attached bath and walk in closet. I love the bath tub, it's HUGE! I spend alot of time soaking, and using my candles and lavender bath salts.

Jimmy has the room we had already been using as an office all to himself with the exception of my new wireless all in one printer (I LOVE being in here and sending something to print in another room, LOL). He plays World of Warcraft, is in a guild that he enjoys and is on a raid team 3 nights a week. So he puts on his headphones, pulls the mic down and tunes out everything for 4 hrs 3 nights a week. Unless I need his help with Ravyn, he's great at stopping what he's doing to hold her or make a bottle or anything I might need.

The room that was our bedroom is now my Witchy room, I have my books, candles, incense, altar, desk and laptop there. I even brought a blanket in for the furbabies to sleep on and put it under my desk, since they have the need to be touching me at all times. Well, at least when I'm sitting still, LOL! I have my solitude to meditate, or write, or read or listen to music. And since the big bow windows face east, I can stay inside on cold nights and still so my full moon magic. We have peace once more in our lives.

I am slowly buying things for the rest of the house, we got a used sectional for the living room, and are using a wooden tray for an end table. I had brought my dishes and flatware when we left Raleigh so all I *needed* was a set of cookware. I got those before she moved, cause she packed the things she thought would inconvenience us the most in her first round of packing. Little did she know I was already prepared for her games, LOL!

We have a beautiful covered front porch where we are able to enjoy the North Carolina weather, right now it's cold and I don't spend too much time out there, but let it hit 65 or 70 degrees and I'm outside. If we are still here in the spring, we plan to work on the flower beds we started last spring and add some additional plants and shrubs.

My classes at Ashford are going well, today is day 2 of the final week of my second class. I've already done and posted the work I needed for this week, including the final draft of the 8 page reflective paper I had to write. So far my accumulative grade for PSY202 is 94.69% with the grades for last week not posted and then the grades for this the final week. I'll know my final grade by the end of the first week in December. I start my 3rd class English Composition on December 6th.

We still have Ravyn 5 night a week, Tanya is working and trying to save to buy herself a car, things just aren't going well in her life right now. Unfortunately, Jimmy & I aren't in a position to be able to help anymore than we are with taking care of Ravyn for her.

So to wrap up my Thanksvember, I'd like to give thanks for the peace we have been given, the ability for me to remove the toxic waste from my life and the chance to go forward from here and continue to live as Goddess guides us. It's been a tough November, but I feel we are finally on the right track.

Now I'm looking forward to Yule and Christmas!! We have our tree up, but not completely decorated because I *borrowed* decorations last year. Tanya gets paid this week and we are going shopping for decorations for her tree and our tree too. I can't wait to see Ravyn and her reaction to the lights... even though this will be a holiday on a budget, I have some ideas to make it memorable. I'm excited!!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Dream Walking...

Usually I don't remember much about the dreams I have. Or if I do, the details are not as vivid as the one I had last night. That's one of the reasons I don't keep a dream journal. I can't remember enough when I wake up to write down what I saw as I dream. The sequence is a bit muddled, but the journey was very intense, enlightening and all in all pretty peaceful.

My dream began as what I imagine one would see in a *usual* journey dream. I'm walking, walking in smoke, trash, unhappiness, clutter. It's a well worn path, with many people and many footprints left behind from those who have walked this path before. The farther I go, the more difficult it is to move, but I continue and endure the struggles laid out before me.

I see obstacles I must go over or around, I have no guidance, I move blindly from one place to the next. On and on I go and travel through what I see has become my life, and what will become my future.

As I continue on the journey, I come to a fork in the road. Ahead of me is the same life I'm living now. The same despair, clutter, unhappiness, and drudgery. To the left is a less traveled path, covered with weeds and surrounded by tall grasses. No one has been on this road in quite some time. I'm thinking why would anyone take this path? It's not very well defined, a person will most assuredly become lost by choosing this route.

As I'm standing there looking at this less traveled path, people all around me are pushing and shoving, yelling at me to get out of the way, that I'm blocking the way and I need to just keep moving. Again, this is the life I've been living, the one I'm used to and the one that seems to be never ending.

But, I just can't take one more step, my feet are frozen to the spot I'm standing, I can't even move off the road out of the way. I begin to feel a sense of panic, since I can't move, I know I'm going to get hurt, knocked down, stepped on...something. I'm becoming frightened by this time and I don't know how to free myself from the horrible sensation I am feeling.

About this time a stranger steps up to me and tells me all I have to do is choose and I can move on my way. I look up at her and ask how can I choose? I don't want to continue on the road I'm now traveling, the road I know, but the other option is unknown and frightening. We stand there in the road, with dozens of people pushing past us, and she tells me, Vickie, you are not happy where you are at this time. You have been searching for such a long time for a way to make your life better, more peaceful and more fulfilling. After all this time, do you really think you will find your peace if you continue on the road you are currently walking? Aren't you ready to make some changes in your life?

As per my usual, I don't think about the decision before me, I just act. I choose the path to the left, the path less traveled, the path that's full of weeds, rocks and no foot prints to be seen...anywhere. I cautiously take the first step down that road, and the more steps I take the clearer the path becomes. The weeds thin out, the rocks become smaller, and the steps of those who have taken this path before me appear in front of me. My guardian cautions me, Vickie, you must go slowly, choose your steps carefully, because even though you can clearly see the foot prints of those who have gone before you, they won't always travel the same path you are searching for and won't be there to guide you.

I can't begin to explain to you the sense of peace and tranquility I have had since this dream. I woke up this morning feeling more at ease with myself than I have in a very long time. My level of stress has reduced, I don't have the sense of urgency to *fix* something...

I've found my magick once again. And let me tell you, I NEVER want to loose it...ever again!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Hump Day Happenings

So, I'm a week late, and I'm very sorry!

Last week was crazy! Most know the issues we've been having with the roommate...well they came to a head a week or so ago. Accusations were made, the landlord got involved, his decision to add Jimmy & I to the lease in December didn't go over well with her, she said Oh Hell No, she gave her notice to vacate, and last Wednesday she moved ALL her stuff out of the house. By the time everything was said and done, I was too emotionally exhausted to even try to write my name, let alone sit at the keyboard. So, again I apologize and will make sure I get here at least every Wednesday evening to give you an update of the weeks happenings.

Classes are going well, I'm in week 3 of my second class, PSY202. Today I submitted an 8 page "Reflective Paper" including the title page, outline and reference page, summarizing my life up to this moment and laying out the plan for my future goals. It's in rough draft form, and I'm waiting on feedback from the TA so I can tweak it and make it all pretty for the final submission in week 5. So far my accumulative grade in this class is 92.42%. I didn't do too well on last weeks quiz, so my grade reflects that.

Miss Ravyn is beginning to crawl all over the house! Actually right now she seems to be doing the inch worm thing, but still makes it across the room in nothing flat. Jimmy & I still take care of her 5 nights a week so Tanya can work, and we love having her here with us. Today we were talking about her and Papa said she's already got him wrapped around her finger, I can't wait til she can talk and bat those baby blues at him when she wants something, LOL!!

I'm still kinda disconnected from things, there isn't much that keeps my interest for very long at a time. So, I've been reading and listening to my music, burning candles and meditating. At first I thought the seasonal depression was coming on early, but the weather has been beautiful and I'm still able to sit outside, so I don't think that's it.

Thanksgiving is next week, I think about my Mom alot this time of year. Our holidays were so full of craziness, with cooking the big meal and then spending the entire weekend decorating her house for Christmas. Then there were those marathon shopping trips we used to go on. It's about 45-60 minutes from their house to the mall she likes to shop at so we'd get in the truck, and make a day of it in town. I know, crazy! But it was fun, and we laughed our butts off all the time.

I'm cooking here at the house for Jimmy, Tanya, Ed and Samuel, Tanya has to work that evening, so we'll be eating around 1PM and then I'll have the baby til she gets off at 10 or 11 that night. We're having some of the traditional things: turkey, stuffing (homemade, not StoveTop), mashed potato's and gravy, dinner rolls, pumpkin pie and chocolate pie for Jimmy, with a few of my own concoctions as well...sweet potato casserole with a pecan crunchy topping, cranberry sauce and then leftovers! YUMMY

OH YEAH! I'm doing the 30 Days of Thanksvemeber on Facebook, so stop by and see what I'm Thankful for...

Well, I guess that's all for this week...I'll do my best to be back next week with another installment of Hump Day Happenings...sheesh, I gotta come up with a different title. That just sounds SO lame, LOL!!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

It's Been Crazy Around Here...

Sorry I haven't kept up with posting. To say my life has been a zoo would be an understatement.

So here's the thing... I take care of the little Miss Ravyn Thursday thru Monday from 2:30PM to about 11:15PM or so while Tanya works, have Tuesday and Wednesday off. My classes at Ashford University go Tuesday(Day 1)thru Monday(Day 7). And I usually do my entire week of assignments on Tuesday and Wednesday to post on the required day. Most calendar weeks run Sunday thru Saturday, geez it's no wonder I'm confused, LOL!

I'm going to *TRY* to post an entry before bedtime on Wednesdays to keep you up to date on what's going on here in Hope Mills, NC. I won't guarantee anything, but it seems like a good idea for now.

Beginning this Wednesday November 9th, look for the Hump Day Happenings...yeah I know, lame, but I can't think of anything else right now. I'm open for suggestions, LOL!!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Soooo, It's Been A Month

I'm midway through the final week of EXP 105 Personal Dimensions of Education, my first class at Ashford University.

This is basically a class to help those of us who haven't been in a learning or classroom environment for a while, get back into the routine that is needed to succeed. I found the assignments manageable, the discussion questions a bit more challenging in as much as some of the others in this class in my opinion, either didn't understand the instructions given or just flat out refused to "comply". The quizzes were over easy, because you were able to take them as many times as needed in order to obtain a perfect score...like an open book test, I guess. Next class is PSY 202 Adult Development and Life Assessment. I have NO idea what this one will involve, we haven't been given access to the information...yet. Day one is this Tuesday, November 1, so I'll update when I know.

Tanya is working full time now and Jimmy & I take care of Miss Ravyn 5 nights each week. We are so blessed to be able to be part of this little life, and she brings such joy to all of us. She is so full of energy and smiles, Jimmy said the other day that Ravyn can make him smile even on his worst days. She's 5 months old now, scooting around on the floor, and we have begun to *baby proof* things so she doesn't get hurt in her explorations.


Papa bought her an exersaucer thing and she spends loads of time in it, trying to get everything into her mouth... OH YEAH! She's teething already, and is a drool factory. She has her Mother's and her Abi's temper, and when something doesn't go her way, she already throws a tantrum and screams like a banshee, LOL!

Sunday afternoon, I'll be going to Raleigh to join my Sisters in our final goodbyes to Heron. I didn't know him as long as everyone else did, but he had such an impact on my life, I miss him ...

Then later that same evening we will be joining Gaia's Circle for our Samhain celebration. I am so looking forward to seeing everyone, I've missed them so much! Some I haven't seen for over a year, but I'm hoping we will all be able to be together at least for a little while. There will be feasting after Ritual, so glad Jimmy is my designated driver for that day, LOL!!

There is so much going on in the world right now, and in trying to keep up with all the craziness, I've sort of lost myself. Jimmy told me last night that most of my posts on FB the last few weeks have been angry and defiant. I'm trying to keep up with the DC40 (if you don't know about this by now, I'm sorry, but I just don't have the energy to explain it to you), then I'm watching the OWS and seeing all those who have been hurt by the very people who have taken an oath to protect. There was a video posted today about the young Marine who was hit in the head with a tear gas canister. I wasn't there, I honestly don't know what the situation was. All I know is from all the different videos being posted, this young man, Scott Olsen, was standing peacefully, not being aggressive, and he was severely injured. This is just the latest in a number of people who have been injured during this occupation.

I've been spending more time than usual watching TV. I love my DVR and record shows to watch either the next day or at least before the next one is ready to record, LOL! I've got a few favorites, and I'm kinda intrigued by Once Upon A Time. The first episode was last Sunday, kinda slow, hoping things get better. But Ginnifer Goodwin is Snow White and I LOVE me some Ginnifer Goodwin... Grimm, another new one that's about the Brothers Grimm comes on tomorrow night...

Well, I guess that's enough boring stuff for tonight. I'll be back, maybe not as often as I'd like, but I'm still here, and most of you know how to find me if you need me for anything.

G'night my Lovelies... play nice til I return, LOL!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Something Strange This Way Comes...

I'm not sure what's going on, but I gotta tell ya, I'm in a HUGE funk. I'm hating just about everything right now. Nothing in particular, but everything in general.

Nothing is holding my interest for any length of time. Not the computer and all my wonderful friends out there in cyber land, not the TV and the new season of shows I have on the DVR, not my books, not my music and NOT my furbabies. And seriously not even the family... the hubby, the daughter or the grand daughter.

I officially began my classes at Ashford University yesterday, not even that is keeping me stoked. OMGoddess! Some of the people in this first class with me...I wonder how they ever finished HS and got into any type of college. Again, I'm just being over irritable. But hey, at least I know how to use spell check, LOL!! I did get my introduction posted, replied to the introduction posts of 3 *classmates* to fulfill that requirement, posted my first discussion question, just haven't replied to anyone on that thread yet.

I need to do some deep meditation to try and figure out what is blocking me and making me feel so anxious, I lit the candles, turned on the iPod, and BAM!! this door gets slammed in my face... *sigh...I'm just all outta whack.

Maybe I need to take a break from ...what?? ... I honestly don't know this time. I can take a break from everything on the computer EXCEPT my classes, would that help?? Am I on electronic overload? I know I'm wanting to be outside in the evenings, but the damn mosquitoes eat me alive. I have Deep Woods Off, but I HATE that stuff.

Hmmm, just looked at the weather report for this weekend, 85 and cloudy on Thursday, 80 and Thunderstorms on Friday and *GASP!!... 68 and cloudy on Saturday?? Really?

Sunday, September 4, 2011

From Irritation to Big Cheesy Grin

My week hasn't all been unsettled. After I got over being pissy about the game making the rounds on FB that was supposed to *raise awareness* for breast cancer, I had a couple great/awesome...(insert your choice of descriptive word here)...things happen to me.

I don't usually watch DWTS, but I've been watching the posts about DWTS and the lineup for the new season, which includes Chaz Bono and Carson Kressley. Boy let me tell you, this has caused QUITE the stir among some people...uh hmmm, the One Million Moms, for example. They are associated with American Family Association who BTW, have been classified as a hate group. One Million Moms feel it is their *Christian* duty to monitor the entertainment industry and if they find something they feel is objectionable for children to see, the begin an email/letter writing campaign to the powers that be over at whichever network they have targeted to *make* them pull the plug on the objectionable show in question. This is their email to ABC regarding DWTS:

As a mother and a member of OneMillionMoms.com, I strongly encourage ABC Network to reconsider their celebrity casting choices for "Dancing with the Stars" this season. I am extremely concerned that ABC feels the need to be politically correct instead of creating show as strictly a dance competition. ABC has crossed the line in pushing the LGBT agenda into what some families would consider safe entertainment.

Some programs in the entertainment industry have gone too far on controversial issues, and "DWTS" is now one of them. This show airs twice a week 8/7c while children are awake, and for ABC to promote a destructive lifestyle is irresponsible.

I am prepared to join thousands of other voices in urging advertisers to place it on their "do not advertise" list and consider pulling all ads from the entire ABC network in protest of this now highly offensive program.

If this is meant to be a family-friendly show, then I hope ABC will take this request seriously and replace Chaz Bono and Carson Kressley (who was added last minute anyway because of another cast member's injury) in this season's lineup of "DWTS". Otherwise, Christian families will not enhance the ratings by watching the show when it returns September 19.

I look forward to hearing from you regarding my concern.

So, instead of making sure which program their children are watching and checking to see if it is appropriate for children OR better yet, NOT making a big deal about a transgendered person being on the show (c'mon...what young child is going to know about transgender??), OMM, has pledged NO Christian support for DWTS this season. Really? Seriously?? Oh yes.

Instead of being what some would consider a responsible parent and just change the channel if there is something on they didn't want the child to see, they are trying to mandate which shows are appropriate for TV. Hmmmm, I don't watch Christian TV, but I don't tell CBN they have to take Pat Robertson off the air. How ridiculous!

Here's where the BIG grin comes in...some of us Pagan/Witch folk have joined the OMM website (ya gotta be a member to send their email), taken this email and done a little editing to show our SUPPORT of Chaz and Carson and then SENT it to ABC directly from the OMM site. Oooppsie!!

There were a few of us who checked out the OMM's Facebook page, and even *liked* the page so we could post our comments to some of their threads...(lots of hate and discontent there, mixed in with alot of out of context scripture) however, when they saw we weren't *on board* with what they were saying and that there were even some witchy folk in the bunch, they *unliked* us and blocked us from their little party. How sad...

This got me to thinking, and I posted a question in my status update... *I wonder how many pagans are on Facebook?* Which BTW, received quite a few *likes*. So off I go, and create a One Million Pagans page. In just 24 hours we have reached 253 *likes*!

The OMP page is NOT in competition with OMM's, I wanted to create a page where ALL pagans on Facebook could share their thoughts and network with many other like minded people. My hope for the page is that we can all talk about the events in our area's, ask questions on different paths, share favorite music and shopping places. I don't want to cause hate and discontent like some of the other pages and places. I'm hoping this will be a positive thing. And I sure as hell don't want OMP to try to dictate to anyone what they believe, how they feel, what show's their children can watch, or how to live their life.

So, if you're on Facebook and haven't already found One Million Pagans, we'd love to have you stop by and join us for a spell...hehehe

Things That Irritate Me...

This past week has been chock full of things that have either pissed me the fuck off or made me grin like an idiot. And most of it takes place on Facebook...yeah I know, Vickie, get real...FACEBOOK?? I have MANY friends on FB, some I know personally, some I'm hoping to meet very soon and others are my virtual friends who mean just as much to me as if I had a face to face personal relationship with them.

There's this "Status Update *Game*" going around that is supposed to promote breast cancer awareness. First, let me clarify, it does absolutely NOTHING to promote awareness of anything, let alone breast cancer. It goes something like this:

Ok pretty ladies, it's that time of year again, in support of breast cancer awareness!! So we all remember last years game of writing your bra color as your status?.....or the way we like to have our handbag handy? Remember last year so many people took part that it made national news and, the constant updating of status reminded everyone why we're doing this and helped raise awareness!! Do NOT tell any males what the status' mean, keep them guessing!! And please copy and paste (in a message )this to all your female friends to see if we can make a bigger fuss this year than last year!!! I did my part... now YOUR turn ! Go on ladies...and let's have all the males guessing! .. It's time to confuse the men again (not that its really that hard to do :)) Everyone knows it makes their brains work wonders on what we're talkin about!! The idea is to choose the month you were born and the day you were born. Pass this on to the GIRLS ONLY and lets see how far it reaches around. The last one about the bra went round all over the world.

So you'll write... I'm (your birth month) weeks and I'm craving (your birth date)!!! as your status. Example: Feb 14th: I'm 2 weeks and craving Chocolate mints!!

January-1week, Febuary-2 weeks, March-3 weeks, April-4 weeks, May-8 weeks, June-9 weeks, July-10 weeks, August-12 weeks, September-13 weeks, October-14 weeks, November-16 weeks, December-18 weeks.

Days of the month: 1-Skittles, 2-Starburst, 3-Kit-Kat, 4-M&M's, 5-Galaxy, 6-Crunchie, 7-Dairy Milk, 8-Lollipop, 9-Peanut Butter Cups, 10-Meat Balls, 11-Twizzlers, 12-Bubble Gum, 13-Hershey's Kisses, 14-Chocolate Mints, 15-Twix, 16-Resse's Fastbreak, 17-Fudge, 18-Cherry Jello, 19-Milkyway, 20-Pickels, 21-Creme Eggs, 22-Skittles, 23-Gummy Bears, 24-Gummy Worms, 25-Strawberry Pop Tarts, 26-Starburst, 27-Mini Eggs, 28-Kit-Kat Chunky, 29-Double Chocolate Chip Crunchy Cookies, 30-Smarties, 31-Chocolate Cake

Not only did I find this particular game tasteless, but it was down right hurtful and in my opinion, insulting to MANY people. Case in point: I have a friend on FB whose daughter has been told she won't EVER be able to have children. So imagine the surprise and joy my friend felt when she saw the daughters status update saying she was "X" weeks and craving "X", only to be devastated when she finally spoke to her daughter at the end of the day and daughter told her it was only a "game" she had been playing.

And, I can't for the life of me see where this "game" raises awareness for cancer or for anything else. NO WHERE in the "game" does it say anything about breast cancer. You get the blurb in the message sent to you from your friends who may be participating. But, HOW IN THE HELL does anyone else know what you are trying to do?

Oh yeah, have I mentioned yet that Breast Cancer Awareness month is OCTOBER?? And men can and do get breast cancer just as often as women do?

Ya'll know me, I can't keep my mouth shut even on my BEST days...and this past week, there weren't many of those days. So my outspokenness resulted in me being "unfriended" by someone who played this game, thought it was fun and told me I need to lighten up, stop being so serious about things that don't directly affect me, just have some fun, and that it was no wonder I suffer from depression. I see the unfriending as a GREAT thing. I was getting pretty tired of the constant "it's all about me" coming from her. And let me tell ya, my news feed has been alot nicer place since she's gone, LOL!!

Well, my lovelies, that's all I have for this post. Keep your eyes open for the one that lets you know what has me grinning like an idiot...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

We Made it Through

Irene has come and gone here in Hope Mills, NC. I haven't been anywhere except my front yard (the only catastrophe was the wind today blew over my lawn swing) to do any checking, so I can't positively say there was no destruction.

I have listened to the weather and news reports and from what I can determine, we were very lucky and sustained very minimal damage. While on the other hand, I've heard from some family and friends in the more northern path of this storm and some of them have experienced everything from downed trees, loss of power, and flooding.

So far the casualty list in NC has been set at 3...I'm hoping the loss of life for the entire east coast will remain minimal.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Versatile Blogger Award ~ Doubled!!

I have the privileged of being awarded this honor from not one, but two awesome ladies. The first is from Rae over at Unleashed Diva Living Out Loud, and then Crow also chose to bestow the title upon me. I am SO blessed...


The Rules after accepting the Versatile Blogger Award are:

• Thank the person who gave you the award & link back to them in your post.
• Share 7 things about yourself
• Pass this award along to 15 recently discovered blogs.

Seven things about myself:

1. I am a wife, mother and grandmother

2. I am a Faerie Witch

3. I LOVE the ocean

4. I just enrolled at Ashford University for a Bachelor of Arts in Complementary and Alternative Health with a Minor in Entrepreneurship

5. I am an avid reader of most any type of book

6. I don't like people who are close minded and can't understand that things in the world are NOT black and white but MANY shades of gray.

7. I simply adore Mead...

The 15 Blogs I would like to showcase are:

1. The Gods Are Bored

2. Cordelia's Cauldron

3. Tales of A Kitchen Witch

4. The Secret Life of the American Working Witch

5. Witchy Gumbo

6. Confessions of A Modern Witch

7. The Pagan Mom Blog

8. Pagan Presence

9. Can We Have A New Witch Ours Melted

10. Dark Mother Goddess

11. Freckles: The Happy Heathen

12. Pagan Culture

13. Soul Liberty Faith

14. The Bloggess

15. Mommy Wants Vodka

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Reason, Season or Lifetime

Quite a few years ago I wrote the following poem about the loss of a friend. I then posted it on MySpace and MyYearbook, with NO copyright protection. It has been changed up and redistributed by MANY people. That I do not mind. I just want to make clear the fact that this is my original work and if you choose to use it, please link back...

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for coming into my life for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

Monday, August 8, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 18~ Your Views on Gay Marriage

I FULLY support Gay Marriage.

I do not believe that marriage is strictly between a woman and a man. It doesn’t matter your gender, if you are in love with someone and want to spend your life with that person, I believe you should have the same rights and benefits as heterosexual couples. I believe LGBT couples have the same feelings as any other couple, I feel they should be able to be legally married, and enjoy the celebration without fear of rejection or discrimination.

I also feel LGBT couples are entitled to any insurance benefits their spouse may be able to provide through their place of employment, and I also support the choice to have children. Whether by artificial insemination, adoption, surrogacy or any other legal means they choose.

I also support LGBT couples who face the challenge of legalities concerning medical decisions they may be required to make for their partner. How dare the government or any institution decide to prohibit a partner from either being with someone who is ill and possibly dying or from making the choices that had previously been discussed by the one who may be too ill to make those decisions at the time choices were needed. No one knows you better than the one you have loved and lived with for the majority of your life. No one else is qualified to make choices...

Marriage is not just for male/female couples any longer.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 17 ~ A Book You've Read That Changed Your View On Something

ChristoPaganism by Joyce and River Higginbotham

Most of you know I am a Witch and Jimmy is a Christian. It wasn't always like this. When we first got together, I was just beginning to explore the Pagan Path after living all of my life in a Christian home/family. And Jimmy didn't claim any religion as his own after growing up catholic and leaving church as a young man.

The Wheel turns and things evolve...Jimmy finds God and I begin to worry what this is going to do to our relationship. Most people I/we talked to told us the same thing...it can't be done. A Christian and Pagan/Witch CANNOT live together. They are at cross points of the spectrum.

However, after reading this book, talking to Jimmy and really listening to his beliefs and how he feels his relationship with his God works, and then explaining my concerns to him, helped us to find the way to keep our relationship together. Both if us firmly believe in our separate spirituality and we each encourage the other to do all that is needed in order to be the best we can be in our worship.

I was raised Christian, so I can help him with scripture, recommend books and music for him, I even go to church with him. I don't feel threatened, and actually enjoy spending time with him as he worships.

He has spent some time with me in ritual before his path changed, so he is comfortable coming to my Circle, and can and does even participate occasionally. He knows I'm not "evil" as some have tried to convince him.

We are both open and communicate to each other about the things we feel in our spiritual lives and I know this is how we make our dual path work for us...

30 Days of truth ~ Day 16~ Something or Someone You Could Definitely Live Without

I could definitely live without people who have a "holier than thou" attitude and are determined that their religious beliefs are the ONLY way to believe.

You know, those people who for one reason or another have their noses buried in dogma and law that they can't find the peace and love of their chosen religion. Perfect example is the group behind the DC40...this group actually frightens me. For some reason, the fully believe that the US is a Christian country and any other religion or faith needs to be abolished. And they aren't just sitting quietly behind their prayers, they have begun calling themselves warriors...

More on this in a later blog.

SO...the one thing I can definitely live without is close minded people...

30 Days of truth ~ Day 15 ~ Someone or Something You Couldn't Live Without

I'm going to answer BOTH of these...

*Someone* I couldn't live without.

This would have to be my soul mate and husband Jimmy. When I met him, I was at a horrible place in my life, I felt like I was on a dead end street and actually hated my life, my husband and all the things I thought were the issues that were making me feel boxed in. I can honestly say I don't know how I made it before he came into my life.

He gave me honesty, freedom, but most of all he gave me respect, without conditions. And just like so many other couples out there, we have our moments, but because we respect each other, we take the time to work through what ever problem has popped up and make sure we put it to rest.

I also have to include my children and grand girls...they have brought such joy to my life. I don't see them all on a regular basis, I do chat with them online and by phone, but there isn't a day that goes by that they aren't in my thoughts and prayers.

The *Something* I couldn't live without is more along the line of a *tee hee*...I am addicted to Starbucks Verona Blend coffee and International Delight Amaretto Creamer. My mornings are dangerous if something happens and I don't have my coffee...LOL! But seriously, I wake up, take the puppies out, make coffee and then depending on the weather and if the mosquitoes are out in force or not, I try to sit outside and enjoy the peace of the new day as I drink my coffee. I thoroughly enjoy the solitude of the morning and right now, I'm looking forward to the beginning of fall with the cooler temps and fresh scent to the air.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 14 ~ A Hero That Has Let You Down

This one is tough...

My Daddy has always been my hero and no matter what I did, he was always there to give me his support. I made decisions and choices in my life I know he didn't agree with, but he never turned his back on me.

Then one day, when I had just turned 41, out of the blue, he said some things to me that hurt me more than the spankings he gave me as a child. He cut me so deep, I moved away and didn't speak to him for a little over 4 years.

That was tough, I had always been able to go to him with any problem or issue and he would listen, and help me work things out. But now all of a sudden, I was completely on my own.

Thankfully, we were able to mend our fences before I moved away from Arizona. He passed away in 2004.

I miss you Daddy...

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 13 ~ A Band or Artist That Has Gotten You Through Tough Times

Gary Stadler

His music is the ONE thing that gets me through my random bouts with depression. I have 4 albums loaded onto my iPod and when I'm unsettled, Gary Stadler is the music I *need* to get me back on track.

As a matter of fact, I have 2 of my favorite tunes on my player here on this blog.

Give him a listen and let me know what you think.

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 12 ~ Something You Never Get Compliments On

Evidently this one just doesn't apply to me... either I don't get compliments on something and I've never paid attention to the non compliments, OR ...

I just don't know how to answer this one. I mean, should I be upset that I don't get complimented on something, even though I don't know what I've been missing? Or do I just let the non compliments roll off my back? Hmmmm, I think I'm gonna go with the latter.

Yep, not getting complimented on something is a non issue for me, I just don't worry about it, I don't feel I'm missing anything, so ppfffftttt!

Monday, July 25, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 11 ~ Something People Compliment You On The Most

Most people compliment me on my attitude or outlook. I, for the most part, try to find the good in all things.

I'm an optimist, my glass is half full. And I really don't like it when others are the ones with the glass half empty because I feel they are "jinxing" the outcome of whatever situation is at hand.

I've learned to live in the moment, yes, I still have my hopes and dreams, and I give voice to them on a regular basis. BUT, I don't run around screaming if a hope or dream doesn't manifest.

Life isn't always a bed of roses for me, I'm unemployed, again. So many of the things I wanted to do have once again been placed on the back burner. When this happens, I just change course and find the small blessings that have been placed before me.

Tonight was a perfect example. It has been so hot and humid here for the past week or so, thunderstorms all around us. We didn't get any rain or relief. Today, late afternoon, early evening I began to hear the rumble of thunder and just "knew" in my heart we would get a bit of relief. It didn't rain a lot, just a few sprinkles, but the temperature did cool down more than enough to sit outside and enjoy the evening.

It's still thundering in the distance, I don't think we will get any more rain, but the few sprinkles we did get were enough to put a smile in my heart and on my face.

Optimism. Yes, I am most often complimented on my outlook...

Sunday, July 24, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 10~ Someone You Need to Let Go, Or Wish You Didn't Know

Hmmmm, I don't *think* I'm hanging onto anyone.

By that I mean, when I'm done with someone or something, I'm DONE. So to answer this one in more than just a couple sentences is gonna take some thought.

I suppose I have those in my closet that would fall into this category, doesn't everyone? Right now, in my life today (OK, tonight, LOL), I can truthfully say there is not one person I'm holding onto.

Yes, I have my memories of people who have crossed into my life for one reason or another, but I'm not obsessed with anyone in particular.

And as far as the wish I didn't know someone goes, yeah, I have a few of those. Mostly people who popped up at a time when I could have really done without their drama or agenda.

They are gone now, out of my life and I feel I'm doing just fine without them...

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Testing...

I have been trying to figure out the html coding to add a link to someone else's page. I'm not sure this is it, but I'm gonna put the code here and see what happens.

I really enjoyed reading my friend Cordelia's entry today. She wrote about Solitude.

YAY!!! IT WORKED! I am SO stoked. Now I can link to pages when I write something... GO ME!!! LOL

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 9 ~ Someone You Didn't Want to Let Go

Someone I didn't want to let go... names & faces, names & faces... keep flashing through my mind, how do I choose just one *someone*?

I can't settle on one, so you get a couple *someone'(s)* for today's entry.

There's my BFF from HS, K. We did everything together. Went to church, sang in both the youth and adult choirs. Competed for some of the same offices in our church youth group. Even dated some of the same guys, not at the same time, but when we broke up with someone the other was maybe interested in, we talked about it and there was honestly NO problem or jealousy.

I can't remember exactly what caused us to loose touch the first time. We were apart for more than 10 years. When we reconnected, it was like we were never apart. And after many late night conversations we swore we would never let a guy come between us again. I'm still not completely sure that's the reason for the first estrangement, but it seemed like the perfect thing/person to lay the blame on at the time.

Unfortunately, a guy is the exact thing that caused our separation this time. OK, 2 guys...her current husband and my ex #4 (see entry for day #8). I really didn't get along with her hubby and neither she or her husband liked my ex. We told them they needed to figure a way to get along. And it worked for a while, til I removed Ex #4 from my life and he went to her with his lies. I haven't seen or talked to K in 10 years now. We do chat on Facebook on occasion, but the closeness is gone and it's just not the same.

Then there is J.

Before I get into this one, I should probably let you know, I am bisexual. This is one of the reasons for removing Ex #4 from my life. He freaked out when I told him and just couldn't handle that I liked girls too... his loss in my book. Most guys I know fantasize about having 2 women, he said he did, but when it came right down to it, he thought I was some sort of weirdo...

Anyway, Jimmy and I had heard all the stories and rumors surrounding J. We probably should have RUN the opposite way, instead we both ended up falling in love with her. Yes, I FULLY believe you can be in love with more than one person at a time. We tried to show her how it felt when someone is loved unconditionally, which we don't think she ever knew. I think we frightened her. Not because both of us were in love with her, she was good with that. She just didn't seem to be able to handle love without conditions, blame, negativity, lies, abuse, belittling... the things she had gotten from both of her ex husbands.

She lied to us...too many times and we caught her in each instance. And she was jealous...not of the relationship Jimmy & I have together. She was jealous of our other friends. People we would go to dinner with, or have a drink with when she was unable to come with us for one reason or another. She broke our hearts...both mine and Jimmy's.

So my someone(s) for this entry are K and J. I love and miss them both, and I think about them more often than not.

Friday, July 22, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 8 ~ Someone Who Has Made Your Life Hell or Treated You Badly

Do 4 ex husbands and 2 ex wives count?? LOL!!

Seriously though, most people have an ex somewhere...ex husband, ex wife, ex boyfriend, ex girlfriend. And if any one of yours comes even close to the ex's in my life, you can relate to how I feel.

Ex #1 was abusive, both physically and emotionally. I was 17 when we got married and it didn't take long for me to figure out I wasn't gonna be sticking around in that relationship for any length of time. And the ONLY good thing that came from that ex was my amazing, talented and beautiful eldest daughter. I am SO proud of her.

Ex #2 was ... hmmmmm ... let's just say, he was another bad choice on my part. BUT I did manage to find some good there. My second daughter and my son. They have both been through some tough times in their lives, but I can honestly say, they are such a blessing to me and I am more than proud of them and the choices they have made in their lives.

Ex #3... I met him BEFORE I married #1 while I was still in HS. I probably should have left it in HS. I still can't comprehend how a man can be and do the things he did BUT do a complete reversal around his family. We went from being a rodeo couple, living the wild life, to zero within 3 months after we married. Which BTW, his parents really didn't approve of and they made it very well known to me every time we were in the same room.

This brings us to Ex #4. A Momma's boy...and anyone who has dated or been involved with a Momma's boy knows exactly what I'm talking about. She was in our business ALL the time. From how I cleaned my house, to what I fed my family. And she was NEVER happy.

This one lasted the longest...almost 14 years. But in the end, I just couldn't deal with the way I was living. Stifled. Unfulfilled. Unhappy. And when I did make the decision to remove him from my life, he went out of his way to make MY life a living hell. Even going so far as to contact all my (not our) friends and family (people I had known more than 30 years) and outright LIE to them. He even for a short period of time was able to turn my children against me. I lost a very nice job because of him, and ended up leaving everything I knew so I could just get away from him and his obsession of "getting even with me".

I left my home, my family, my house and ALL it's contents and moved all the way across the country (from Arizona to Maryland) just to keep from killing this man and going to prison for the rest of my life. That's how miserable he made me. And to this day, he or ex wife #2 will occasionally find a way to creep back into my life and try to irritate the shit outta me again.

It's taken a while, but I've been able to restore most of the relationships he destroyed...there's still one or two who won't speak to me and think I'm lower than dirt. And only one that continues to hurt...

So, yeah, I gotta say Ex #4 is the ONE person who has made my life hell

Thursday, July 21, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 7 ~ Someone Who Has Made Your Life Worth Living

There isn't just one person who has made my life worth living...

I am truly blessed in my life. I have a wonderful man who walked into my life 10 years ago and turned my world upside down. For the better.

I have 3 grown children who are each successful in their lives and have given me 7 of the most beautiful granddaughters anyone could want.

I have many close friends who in one way or another has touched my life and enriched it beyond my wildest imaginings.

So to try to single out just one person in my life cannot be done...I am thankful for each and every person I have encountered. Those who have touched my life in both the positive and negative. For there MUST be balance of light and dark in each situation.

No, I won't single out just one person...there are entirely too many people who have made my life worth living.

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 6 ~ Something You Hope You Never Have to Do

This one is easy...I hope I never have to bury one of my children.

I mean, come on...parents aren't supposed to outlive their children. They are suppose to grow old and be able to enjoy their children as adults along with the spouses and grandchildren most would add into the mix.

I know, in the real world, there are people every day who have to do just the thing I hope I never have to do. And I can't even begin to understand how they feel. I am more than thankful my children and grandchildren are for the most part healthy and happy in their lives. I pray each morning asking my Goddess to grant them health and long life. So far, my prayers have been answered, BUT I do NOT take anything for granted. I know things can and usually do change in the twinkle of an eye.

I'm just hopeful I won't ever have to live through the loss of one of my children or grandchildren...

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

It's TOO DAMN HOT!!

Our AC stopped working, it's hotter inside than out, so I'm not going to be doing much online tonight. Will catch up on 30 Days of Truth tomorrow after the repairman comes...

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

30 Days of truth ~ Day 5 ~ Someting You Hope to Do in Your Lifetime

Like a few people I know, I have a “Bucket List” of things I want to accomplish before I pass once again into the Summerland.

To pare down my list to just one thing took some thought. I want to travel to Spain, Hawaii (specifically Kauai), and Salem.

I want to win the lottery…and with those winnings pay off all my debt and buy a small house on or very near the beach.

I want to go back to school…get a business degree.

The one thing I can narrow my One Thing I hope to Do down to is get the business degree and open my own little Pagan Tea Shop. A place where people can come hang out, enjoy some amazing tea and browse the bookshelves. This has been my *dream* for as long as I can remember and up until recently I had no idea how to accomplish it. Now I have the opportunity to go back to college, get a business degree and have the foundation to make this impossible dream a reality.

I know, it’s not going to be easy, especially at my age, but I am determined to give it my best shot. And when I do finally open, I promise I’ll send you all invitations to the grand opening of Aoibheal’s Attic!

Monday, July 18, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 4: Something You Have to Forgive Someone Else For

When I sat down and tried to come up with one specific thing to forgive someone for, I couldn’t do it.

There have been a lot of times in my life I felt I had been “wronged”. If I held onto them, I’d be stark raving looney by now. For the most part, I have dealt with the issue; put it in its own little box on a shelf in that great big imaginary closet we all have where we put things we don’t want to deal with any longer, and moved on. Sometimes far away from said closet.

I feel I have grown from the faults I have encountered. I have changed, mostly for the better, and can honestly say I don’t hold a grudge…OK, not for very long anyway… I pick up the pieces, dust myself off and move along to the next phase/challenge my Goddess has in store for me.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for

Many, many things...but the one that I can't seem to get past is the breakdown of the relationship with my eldest daughter. I can list various reasons or excuses, but the simple fact is, it was easier to let my mother be her mother.

I was a frightened, abused by my husband, in the process of a divorce after only being married less than a year, teenager, when she was born 37 years ago. And when she was finally released from the hospital after her birth, where she had to spend an additional 4 weeks because her *father* beat me the night I went into labor with her and caused a premature birth, I honestly didn't know how to care for her. So, up steps my Mom and literally takes over the care and comfort for this child. There were times when I did try to do things on my own, be a mother to her, I mostly failed. I made so many mistakes, and repeated a few of them.

But I NEVER stopped loving her. Or stopped worrying about her. I have tried to mend the damage, sometimes I think I'm doing OK, others I feel like I'm pushing her away again. She is after all an adult with a 15 year old daughter of her own and even though she has very serious health problems she is doing an AMAZING job as a parent.

I wish we were closer, both in distance and in heart. I'd love to be able to spend time with her, learning about the incredible adult she has become. Until that time comes, I'll work on forgiving myself, and I'll continue to thank Goddess everyday, and ask Her to keep her under Her protection.

I love you Mylia...

Saturday, July 16, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 2: Something you love about yourself

Hmmmm, this one caused me to stop and do some heavy soul searching. The thing that kept coming back goes pretty much hand in hand with what I wrote for day 1. It's the polar opposite of what I hate about myself, so it stands to reason, it "should" be what I love about myself.

I'm extremely compassionate. I have a huge heart and would do anything I possibly can for any of my family and friends. Little things make me cry, Jimmy holding me when he knows I'm having a difficult moment, (there has been QUITE a few of those moments recently), my Fur babies giving me morning cuddles, getting a IM, text or FB message from one of my granddaughters, seeing Ravyn grow and change on an almost daily basis...big cheesy grin here, LOL!

Being the optimistic one in *most* any given situation...looking for the best possible outcome in what others consider their most awful circumstances. Knowing that I can help someone feel better just because I put the thought and feeling into words...

Loving everyone other than myself just a little bit more...

Friday, July 15, 2011

30 Days of Truth ~ Something I Hate About Myself

There are a myriad of things I hate about myself and to try to narrow it down to just one is beyond difficult. So after I posted the entry itemizing the daily "truths", I sat down and made a list. The thing that kept coming up was that I am too emotional.

So, for Day #1, I HATE that I am too emotional...

Being emotional can be a good thing or in my case it is probably the ONE thing that causes me the most problems. I cry easily, I get angry even easier. And then there is anxiety, frustration, ... you get the picture.

I also HATE that I have a difficult time controlling my emotions. There are times when I can be in a situation and I'm good, another time, I'm off the freakin wall.

So, yeah, I HATE that I am too emotional. Now that I've admitted it, I gotta find a way to get and keep a handle on it. Next to impossible...*sigh*

Friday's Fumblings...

Last night's Full Moon was amazing! I was able to put away all the anger, and unsettledness (<<--Vickie ism), and just sit and absorb the energy from that bright shining light. Now, this morning I'm hoping I can implement some of the things revealed to me during my meditation. I didn't do spell work, I wasn't in a place where I felt stable and safe enough.

I've been having a difficult time the past few days. It's been brought back to me how much I need to be self sufficient and not rely on anyone for the important things. This is like an oxy moron for me... we don't have a vehicle so we are reliant on someone else to even get to the grocery. And as I was trying to resolve that issue, I asked someone to help me out. Let's just say I should have known better. Now I'm back to square one, doing things myself and hoping for a productive outcome.

On a more positive note, I did re commit to the 30 Days of Truth challenge and will be doing my best to complete all 30 days in a row this time...we'll see, LOL! First installment will be posted this evening sometime!

Have a wonderful day, I am really going to try. OH! The weather here in the sand hills of NC has cooled off a bit today, so I'm planning to be outside at least part of the day enjoying the mid 80's.

~xoxo, Vickie

Thursday, July 14, 2011

30 Days of Truth...

Back in January of this year I started this challenge and promptly discarded it. There were too many things going on in my life and I didn't feel I could honestly answer and then post those answers to the questions/statements. My brother had just been diagnosed with cancer, I was worried about him and my mother who lives with him. Tanya was having some problems with her pregnancy and once again depression was my best friend.

So, even though there is alot going on around me, (when is there ever NOT something happening in my world?) I'm going to once again attempt to complete this challenge...

Without further ado, I give you the 30 Days of Truth

Here are the days that we have to share truth about ourselves. I promise to be truthful to myself while responding to these statements.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone else for

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living

Day 8: Someone who has made your life hell or treated you badly

Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but who drifted

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough times

Day 14: A hero that has let you down

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn't live without

Day 16: Something or someone you could definitely live without

Day 17: A book you've read that changed your view on something

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage

Day 19: What is your opinion of religion?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (Scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you got into a fight a couple of hours before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn't done in your life

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone and explain why you chose those songs

Day 25: The reason you believe you're still alive today

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life?

Day 27: What's the best thing you've got going for you right now?

Day 28: What would you do if you got pregnant (or got someone pregnant) right now?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself

Day 30: A letter to yourself

Monday, July 11, 2011

Persephone's Side of the Story

They thought I’d been abducted. May be it’s best that’s what they believe.

How do you explain to the mother who has your entire life planned out, you weren’t the lily white daughter she had built all her hopes upon? When I saw her last I was a slender, young maiden with flowers in my hair. My cheeks would turn pink each time a boy so much as looked at me, my innocent sighs so charmingly executed.

Some days I still yearn for flowers, but wake up to find jet roses in my bed and at my feet. No longer the tender young thing, now I’m full, red and ripe. I have no use for sonnets or ribbons in my hair. I clothe myself in spider silk and shadow, and speak with the tongues of nightmares.

Mother would have had me wed to some milk faced boy, who would follow me around blindly and paw at me when the lights were turned out. I cannot see myself sitting idly in the sunlight, fanning myself and drinking watered wine. I’m addicted to the darkness, where I can submerge myself in the night and drag my fingernails across Deaths shoulders.

She had always talked about grandchildren, and it never occurred to me to disagree. How do I explain to her I find the cries of the dead far more pleasing than the thought of a whining child at my breast? I know she would be astounded to know, here in this place, I have no need to bow my head. I am much more than wife and the things I say are law.

Now that you have seen me and fulfilled your duty, return to her and if you wish, tell her I was afraid, that I begged him to release me and let me go back. Tell her I screamed when he held me down and forced me to submit. It’s for the best she doesn’t know my screams were not from fear.

By now, I’m sure she’s gone to Zeus begging for him to hasten my release. I’m pretty sure her cause is lost, you see, I swallowed much more than seeds that night. Mother will feel better if she thinks I grieve for those scattered blossoms, lost on Enna’s rolling hills. She must never know I have learned to love the taste of blood and I’m not going anywhere…

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I'm A Horrible Patient...

To begin with I HATE being sick, in any form. Whether I'm sick with a cold, or I've got some sort of injury...reference last night's blog... I refuse to be sick and I don't like anyone waiting on me when I am.

I'm so used to doing for myself and when I *need* assistance it makes me irritable, which in turn, I tend to take it out on my care givers. Jimmy has been so good to me today, he cut up the cantaloupe and strawberries, made me breakfast and has generally been an attentive husband. The only contentious place in the day so far has been my refusal to use the crutches every time I move off the couch.

I just figure since my knee is feeling better I really don't see the need to use them to go the 10 feet or so to the bathroom. Besides, with age comes bladder control issues and when I gotta go, I REALLY gotta go. Wasting time trying to get those damn crutches to maneuver is something I can't afford to do, LOL!

Anywho, I'm sitting here on the couch, leg elevated with the heating pad for this cycle (I'm alternating 30 minutes heat and 30 minutes ice) Jimmy has gone to the store to get coffee (I'm spoiled, we only use Starbucks Verona Blend) and smokes for him. I really want him to quit smoking, but since he's taking care of me for a few days, the chances of that are pretty slim, LOL!

Back to Facebook, the TV, and the Nook. Let's see what other adventures I can get into for the remainder of the day...

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Dammit That Hurts!!

Living here in south eastern North Carolina, we are somewhat fortunate to be blessed with "pop up" thunder storms on any given summer after noon. Today was no exception. Just about dinner time a nice, noisy thunder boomer came rolling in. Jimmy & I were next door at the sister's house for BBQ chicken. After dinner Jimmy left before I did because Tuesday is his WoW raid night and he needs to be on the computer by 7:30 at the latest. Not a problem.

When I finally got the gumption to walk across the yard to get to our house, I look out and it's still raining, but not very hard, so I should be OK to make it home without any incidents...YEAH RIGHT! This is Vickie we're talking about, remember??

(Side note: this is the sister who's house is under going some renovations to the outside...her decks have been pulled away from the side of the house so the new siding can be put up. So we are using an improvised gang plank type entrance from the front deck to her front door. And the steps UP to the deck have also been removed, and we are using a rubber maid type step stool to get UP on the deck.)

So out the door I go and across the "gang plank" to the deck...I notice it's a little slippery from the rain, but not too bad and since I've done this so many times in the past few weeks, I'm feeling pretty good about making it. I do, and get to the edge of the deck to step down onto the rubber maid type step to get onto solid ground. I step off the deck, all lined up and miss the damn stool, my foot hits the ground and something goes POP in my right knee... this is the knee I re injured back in January when I stubbornly walked the mile to the corner store for cigarettes for someone who was making life pretty miserable for all the parties involved.

At this point I don't know whether to laugh or cry and Sis, thinks I've just lost my balance...but the "ow, ow, OW, OW, OW!!'s keep getting louder so she comes to check on me. I can't put ANY weight on my right leg, BUT I CAN bend it at the knee so I know I didn't blow the knee nor did I break my leg. The niece and brother in law come out to help, someone calls Jimmy and he comes running over. I REFUSE to go to the hospital...and anyone who knows ANY thing about Cape Fear Regional Medical Center will understand my reasoning for not going.

I get loaded up in the van, A (the niece) finds a pair of crutches for me, and off to the house we go, right up to the steps that lead to the front door. You shoulda seen me trying to get up those wet slippery steps on crutches, you woulda laughed your asses off...I know I DID even through the pain. Chaos and Calliope were going crazy, I was trying to get to the bedroom change outta the wet clothes, get onto the bed and elevate the knee.

Here I sit, with this cool contraption M (the brother in law) got when he had his knee replacement surgery, it's like a brace, but attached to a reservoir via a couple hoses, and there's a bulb like on a sphygmomanometer (blood pressure cuff) You squeeze the bulb and it sends cold water from the reservoir up to the brace type thing and  does away with the need for ice packs. WOW I'm loving that, cause I HATE ice packs, they are so uncomfortable.

Any who, looks like I'm gonna be on light duty and bed rest for a day or two, and that means I'm attached to the laptop and cell phone. So send me LOTS of messages so I have something besides Farmville to occupy my time, LOL!

All I can say is it's a GOOD thing I have already written and submitted my contribution for 31 Days of Deity...

Thursday, June 23, 2011

One of Those Days...er... Weeks

On Monday I quit my job...I really hated that job. It should have been a piece of cake to do, but I didn't feel I had been given the training I needed to perform the requirements of the position. I was a Territory Assistant for Hallmark Cards.

Basically, I was required to visit 8 Walgreen's Stores in the Fayetteville, NC area and make sure the person they had hired to work in the Hallmark department knew how to do their job. Easy, right?? Nope, not if you don't have any idea what the hell the job description is and what you are supposed to be showing someone else to do. I did this job for 6 months and STILL don't know how to do it...so Monday evening, I submitted my letter of resignation.

When I was hired, I was told I'd have someone to train and mentor me...OH! did I mention this was ALL done by email and phone calls? I didn't meet my supervisor until I had been "on the job" for 2 months. He was in Kansas and had NEVER been to NC...WOW! REALLY??

But the person that was gonna train me lived in Wilmington, just a short 2 hour drive from me and my "Territory". I saw her a grand total of 5 times in the last 6 months. When I did see her, or finally talk to her after leaving NUMEROUS voice mails, OR better yet, FINALLY get a reply to any of the multiple emails I sent to her, she ALWAYS gave me a vague and abstract answer to what ever issue I was having.

And don't get me started about the emails to my "manager" that I got absolutely NO response from. I have over 150 emails in the Hallmark sent folder in my business email account. And I'll give you odds that only about 10 of them have EVER gotten a reply.

So, I'm back among the ranks of the unemployed...AGAIN! Sheesh...

But, I have had some positive things happen this week and I gotta tell you, they by FAR out weigh the downer I was on. Most of you know, this little ol blog made it into the top 25 Blogs of Faith over at Circle of Moms...woot! I got an email a few days ago asking me to do a little bio of myself, answer a few questions and send along a photo so I can be "featured" in the Top 25 Blogs of Faith category. I am so psyched to be sharing this honor with some of the most amazing women it has been my pleasure to "meet". OK, not literally, but ya know what I mean.

And I'm also going to be participating in 31 Days of Deity that my friend Angela has put together over at her blog, Pagan Mom Blog. I've written a little thing about Persephone and how she views her "abduction and rape". It's a little dark, but hey, that's how she presents herself to me, and on a regular basis, I might add.

(Ya know, I *used* to know how to add the html tags to make links to other peoples pages, but I haven't used that talent in a while and it seems I've forgotten all that I knew, LOL! It's a bitch to get old, they say the mind is the first thing to go...hahaha)

Tuesday evening we had a major thunderstorm come through here, and found that the roof in the office leaks, ALOT. So the landlord came out yesterday, looked at it and today he brought his contractor by to see what the damage is. Apparently it is pretty bad cause they're gonna be here bright and early at 7AM tomorrow morning to fix the roof. So much for sleeping in, LOL! Not only did this storm show us the leaky roof, it also did some damage to my flower beds. We don't have gutters on the house, so all that rain pouring off the roof mangled my flowers and dug trenches in the beds. I showed this to the landlord too, and he's offered to spring for gutters, at least to the front part of the house so the rain will stop tearing shit up.

OH! Today I finally got off my ass and began the process to take some online classes through University of Phoenix. I want to own my own little Tea Shop/Pagan Book Shop, so I'm looking at a Bachelor Of Science In Business - Concentration In Small Business Management And Entrepreneurship...whew that's a mouthful!!! I spoke briefly to a counselor this evening and he's made arrangements to call back tomorrow so we can determine exactly what it is I need to do. I'll keep you all updated as to my progress IF I do actually go through with this.

Tomorrow is Faerie Day, so I have spent some extra time in my room at my alter, just meditating and praying for guidance. I'm going to use some of this extra time I have to get things back in order around my house. While everyone is gone from the house tomorrow, I'm going to use my white sage and smudge the entire house, light some incense a just do a general cleansing of the whole area.

Tomorrow night, I have made plans to leave some treats in my little garden for the Faeries, some honeyed milk, sweet cakes and some mead. Also found a few spark-lies for them to take back with them. I've cleansed the sea shells I brought back from the beach to use for setting out the treats...and I've got some soft lights to put up tomorrow so the light from the porch doesn't frighten them away.

Well, I think this is quite enough for tonight my darlings. So I'm gonna go take a hot lavender bubble bath, with some wine and a few candles.

G'night

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Upgrading my Cell Phone

OK everybody, I need some input here. I'm thinking about upgrading my phone and I don't know what I want.

I'm a Blackberry fan...I LOVE my BB Curve. However, my carrier, TMobile has been sold to AT&T, and I was told the other day that when the merger takes place AT&T will require all their customers to have a 4G phone.

And my BB has been acting up ALOT lately. It freezes up at the most inopportune times, and I can't get it to work again for more than an hour sometimes. I've upgraded ALL the soft ware and even had them do a factory reset. I'm STILL having problems.

SO...does BB make a 4G phone? Or should I go with an android?? TMoblie has a couple 4G's I've been looking at. But I honestly don't know much about them...

I've been looking at and researching the G2x and with the dual core processors it seems this is a super phone. I've read reviews for it and about 80% find it to be a great phone that they would recommend to someone else.

I've looked at BB's and so far they don't have any 4G phones listed on their website.

SO...give me your ideas, input, opinions. Let me know what phone you have, if you like it, would you buy it again, or are you going to be trading it in as soon as you can?

You can leave comments here on the blog or on the posting on my FB page. Don't let me down guys! I REALLY need help on this one!!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Morning Prayer

Bless me Goddess

On this day,

Help me as I

Work and play

To receive your

Beauty now,

Give me strength

And please allow

This day to be

All it should be

In love I ask this

Blessed Be...

Monday, June 13, 2011

Monday's Musings

Last week, after all the excitement of the Blog contest died down, I found myself a bit lost, without a project and a little lethargic. I didn't have any one thing I was obsessing on, nor did I have the gumption to do much of anything for the rest of the week.

The remodeling of the sister's house is finally making some progress. Jimmy & Mike have taken off most of the old wooden siding and repaired any wood framing that had been water damaged. They've added some insulation and wrapped the entire house in preparation for the new siding. That was a nightmare in itself...

After spending hours deciding what type and color siding they wanted, off they went to get it ordered...just to have the WRONG color delivered on the first scheduled day and time. The driver takes it back, and the company calls to confirm the CORRECT color. Not a problem, we'll have it to you next week...Oh BTW, there's gonna be an additional charge due upon delivery. By this time Debra is LIVID! She has already given a deposit that should MORE than cover the cost of the siding.

Off we go, the four of us, to the siding company...AFTER Jimmy calls and gets a verbal estimate for the same exact color, size and square footage as what has already been ordered. (He just acted like he was a new customer) Arriving at siding company, we go through this long drawn out process BUT finally have the correct color, and size ready to be delivered on Friday. OOps! Once more in comes a phone call...We are sorry Mr ...., but we had a hard time getting your siding loaded in Wilmington and we can't get it delivered until tomorrow (Saturday) morning. OH!! THAT's NOT GOING TO WORK!!...we are going out of town, just deliver it early Monday morning.  OK, Mr ....., will do, see you Monday.

Saturday morning we are trying to get the van laded for the beach trip and guess what shows up? YEP! You guessed it, a flatbed, forklift and 9 square of siding. "Delivery was supposed to be changed to Monday". "I didn't get that message..."...FINE!, Just drop it over here... WOW!! What a mess this company has been since day one. *Note to self...do NOT under any circumstances use ABC Materials for ANYTHING!!!

Anyway, after everything gets squared away, we loaded up the van and hit the road to Myrtle Beach and I was able to spend a few hours just absorbing the energy the sea offers. I love the sea, I get my sanity and strength from the ocean. We are going back in July, I am so excited to be able to spend an entire week just sitting in my chair next to the water, reading my nook or listening to the sound of the waves crashing on shore.

Just imagine, there's gonna be at least 8 of us in a 2 bedroom condo that easily sleeps 10 people, and Sis and I have already told everyone they are on their own for entertainment and food. With the exception of the main evening meal when we'll TRY to gather everyone up for some sort of structured dining experience, LOL!

I can just picture it now...me, my beach chair, sunscreen, big floppy hat, my nook and iPod, cocktails and peace and tranquility. Ahhhhh...*insert contented SIGH here...LOL!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Thanks To Everyone For Your Support

Well, the voting is over at Circle of Moms Top 25 Blogs of Faith, and out of the top 25 blogs 12 of them were written by Pagan Moms. Thanks to ALL of you, I was fortunate enough to finish in the top 25 at #25 with 3649 votes.

The number one spot was held by my friend Kris who writes Confessions of A Pagan Soccer Mom. This woman is such a treasure and I am blessed to call her friend. If you haven't found her blog yet, please take the time to do so...you won't be disappointed.

Along this little journey, I have "met" some amazing women and I look forward to learning more about each of them and nurturing our friendship. It's going to be an adventure that's for sure...

Monday, June 6, 2011

Thanks and Appreciation

Before my blog was nominated by someone over at Circle of Moms for their 25 Top Faith Blogs, I lived in obscurity here in blog land. I'd write my thoughts and feelings, post a link to my Facebook page and feel lucky if I had a comment or two on said posts. I had 7 or 8 "followers" and followed about 15 or so blogs from some of the most amazing ladies it has been my pleasure to "stalk".

Today, I logged in to Aoibheal's Lair, and find I have 44 followers AND someone posted a comment on a Facebook link saying she thinks I'm "fab". How cool is this?? I honestly don't write about much more than my everyday life, my loves, my fears, and my dreams...just like many others who put their life out there to be seen by the many or the few.

I am humbled by the thought that somewhere in any of the things I tend to ramble about, someone has found something to like enough to want to continue to read what I post. I thank you one and all... and I will try to keep posting more frequently.

You all are "FAB"...

Friday, June 3, 2011

An Open Message to Circle of Moms Top 25 Faith Blogs by Moms

I honestly can't believe all the bickering, name calling and just plain ugliness that has come from the blog contest over at Circle of Moms. And today I find out there have been threats of harm to not only my friend who writes Confessions of a Pagan Soccer Mom, but also a new friend who writes Journey to Beloved. What in the world is going on with some of you people???

The ones who claim to have a witness for Jesus are the ones who are being the most dramatic. I honestly don't understand how anyone who claims to be a Christian and follow the teachings of Jesus Christ can be so nasty and hate filled. Yes, you are "concerned for the salvation" of us Pagans, yes you want us to "be saved and seek the kingdom of God". But if what you are spewing in your blogs is the "only" way to meet the Savior, then I'm gonna have to pass.

You see, once upon a time, I too was a Christian. I read my bible, went to church and Sunday school. I was so active in my church, I didn't have/take time for anything else. I still know the scripture, I still remember some of the songs of praise we sang. However, there was SO much anger, competition, strife and unhappiness, I walked away from any organized religion. After searching for so many years, I finally found peace and most of all TOLERANCE.

Today I love everyone, I care about everyone, I don't judge and I don't condemn. If you want to be a Christian, I'm all for you following that path. Please don't push your beliefs off on me and anyone who doesn't believe the same as you. Please don't condemn those you don't understand and please find the love and compassion I know Jesus had in his heart for those who were different from him.

And most importantly STOP all the hatred and negativity you as Women of Faith have been spewing the past few weeks. Find the love I know you have in your heart, find the joy that is supposed to come from being a Christian, live the life you you have and then when it comes time to meet God in judgment there will be no reason for him to say to you, "Get thee gone, I never knew ye".

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Our Newest Little Witchling

Just about a week ago Jimmy and I were given the greatest gift... our newest granddaughter, Ravyn Isobel Foster. She was born May 26, 2011 at 12:09 AM, weighing in at 6lbs and a whopping 20 inches. To say we are over the moon would be such an understatement, we are beyond Blessed and I am so thankful to Goddess that both Ravyn and her Mommy are doing great!


Jimmy calls her Bella, and she already has him wrapped around her tiny little fingers. He checks on her every day, calling Tanya to see how "his" baby is doing. Yesterday he asked me if I'd talked to Tanya yet and when I said no, he picked up the phone, called and asked to speak to Ravyn. Tanya said  sorry Papa, she's eating right now and can't talk, so Jimmy says well, just have her call her Papa when she gets finished. 


As for me, I am looking forward to finding out which Goddess claims this Witchling and knowing who will be guiding and protecting Ravyn. I'm excited to be part of this new little life and to helping teach her the ways of our combined beliefs.  


 Welcome to the world Ravyn Isobel Foster...your family, all of us, loves you so very much...